Tonight You Spilled Paint On My Sky, and I Bled Beautiful
This week, I've begun a change in my thinking patterns. Due to insight into the Budhist religion, an increase in physical activity, seeing my girlfriend, fighting with my girlfriend, remembering not to take her for granted, and today in general, I have realized that often times we take forgranted the things we love most, we take for granted. We forget how beautiful they are, and how huge they are to our very being. Today was my first day without my boot. I went for a walk with a left shoe on for the first time in a month. I'm not allowed to run yet, but I'll get there. I realized today in the car, as me and cory were driving around with nothing to do that this place is absolutely beautiful. The sunset was gorgeous tonight, and everything about Wrentham/Norfolk is just... breathtaking. I've forgotten in the ten years I've lived here how pretty it is. So I guess my point is when you love something or someone, don't let yourself forget it, because its so much better to always stay breathless.
On my walk today, I realized something else. Everyone has their alter-ego's. Think about it. There is always that one person, that one place, that one thing, that allows you to act like you wouldn't normally be. For me, there's DECA Joe and School/Parents Joe. DECA Joe is motivated, confident, and lives to the best of his ability. Outside of there, I definitely am not motivated, am arrogant rather than confident, and try to compensate for my inablitity to problem solve reasonably by smoking. I have some good qualities outside of DECA, however I'll focus on the ones that need changing. It's not until I first recognize this contradiction in my lives into harmony with each other that I can be truly happy. I'm halfway there.
By the way, I really love my girlfriend.
On my walk today, I realized something else. Everyone has their alter-ego's. Think about it. There is always that one person, that one place, that one thing, that allows you to act like you wouldn't normally be. For me, there's DECA Joe and School/Parents Joe. DECA Joe is motivated, confident, and lives to the best of his ability. Outside of there, I definitely am not motivated, am arrogant rather than confident, and try to compensate for my inablitity to problem solve reasonably by smoking. I have some good qualities outside of DECA, however I'll focus on the ones that need changing. It's not until I first recognize this contradiction in my lives into harmony with each other that I can be truly happy. I'm halfway there.
By the way, I really love my girlfriend.