priorities

[_thinkofme]

Lately I have been having a lot of trouble prioritizing my life. I seem to be putting everything except Kevin on the backburner. For instance my mother shut my phone off for the past week and half because I haven't been doing what she asks me. I havent been keeping up my household duties, or meeting my parents or teachers expectations. I keep piling up the late work, and putting things off till the last minute, engagements and assignments. I dont really know what im doing anymore, it seems that i can barely wait to be out of the house and able to spend as much time with kevin (and our soon to be new puppy we are adopting and naming sydney.) But the truth of the matter is that im not out of the house, i have classes and responsibilities. I just find it so hard to be ripped away from him to do other things i find less important and less enjoyable. Last semester classes of senior year are a little difficult to focus on, i mean come on. Im doing poorly in painting (never making my deadlines and not turning in assignments), i am habitually late to class because i cant motivate myself to get up on time. Im doing poorly in into to college math because i just flat out dont do the assignments. (this weekend im going to try and catch up and be like sorry these are over two weeks late). And ap chemistry is just about unbearable.

I just want this semester to be over so i can curl up with kevin and sydney and not have to worry about any of this. I wonder if this summer is going to be hell dealing with my mother. I am dreading her meeting kevin because she is NOT going to understand and will automatically judge him based on his appearance. august cannot come soon enough i swear.