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Last night I felt real arms around me, no hope, no harm, just another false alarm
Last night, like most things, didnt turn out as planned. This is going to be strange (I never talk about how i spend my days)
I got to Westbourne Park early and sat myself in a bistro, and drank a couple of gin and oranges (i can't stop!)
Ross and Tommy turned up, and we walked around getting frustrated trying to find Westbourne Studios. Finally we arrived, and were greeted by a helpful foreign girl, who warned us that theres alot of people here already. She was right, the queue was huge, Tommy mentioned that most people were there just to be seen at a Warp night, not because they were so interested in the music/films, I had to agree...
We decided to come back when the queue dies down, so we settled for another couple of gin and oranges and cigarettes, and the most beautiful mirror and chandler i have ever seen.
Westbourne Studios is nice. We had a little look around at the artwork, but decided to give up on warp.
We made our way back to jo's, there's always a strange mood in her place, usually due to her. An old & older friend turned up, and i was genuinely pleased to see him, we had alot to talk about and he didn't insist on catching up too much, which i like.
I noticed a couple of missed calls from Scarlett. I tried hard to stop thinking what she was calling for. I wonder what she was going to say, now i'll never know.
Me and Ross left jo's around one, it's always a nice drive home, through the forest at night.
You know when you just feel safe around someone, just really calm? Immediately I felt sad, but then this funny glimmer of happiness, and then that emotion right in the middle of those two. I realized that, while there were lots of people that I loved, and certainly some that I could imagine giving me that calm, safe feeling, I instinctively thought, "That's Scarlett for me. That's the companion". All the things I don't understand, they're such good company. And then I thought of all that not understood, and that if it has any sort of consciousness that we can comprehend..