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i feel so drained. the reason i had to go to new jersey on such short notice was because the rising sun karate academy that's there had a fire.. so, i had to go and check things out. no, it wasn't a bad fire and nobody was hurt (thank god, i almost keeled over when kyoshi herbster called me and told me). the only think that was really hurt was my pocketbook. *sighs* i had to shell out a couple thousand for the damages to be fixed.
i see everyone's buzzing about the VMA's and that..... horrible..... wretched... heart-wrenching kiss between madonna and tina. was i disgusted by the kiss? no... i was torn by it. it killed me to see her kissing someone else. even though it was, in fact, a woman and for entertainment purposes. yes, everyone, i went to the VMA's. i went with amy jo.. she was in new york anyways and decided that she should keep an eye on me because she knew tina would be there and she knew i'd probably do bodily harm to myself if i saw her there with someone else. well, she didn't have anyone else with her (to my knowledge) and i didn't have to slit my wrists. although, i wanted to die when i saw tina kiss madonna.. i got up and went to the bathroom and splashed some water on my face. it was horrible.... i felt my heart tearing apart.. i hate that she's questioning my love for her.. there, i said it... my love for her... damnit, i love her.. i love her til i can't love no more.. i love her with every single cell in my body.. and i long for her to love me back.. but, dear god, i don't think she does. she doubts me and therefore she cannot love me.
*sighs and rubs his eyes*
tina, i love you. please, please forgive me.
that's all i can say. that's all i have the power to say.
*clicks update with a heavy heart*
i see everyone's buzzing about the VMA's and that..... horrible..... wretched... heart-wrenching kiss between madonna and tina. was i disgusted by the kiss? no... i was torn by it. it killed me to see her kissing someone else. even though it was, in fact, a woman and for entertainment purposes. yes, everyone, i went to the VMA's. i went with amy jo.. she was in new york anyways and decided that she should keep an eye on me because she knew tina would be there and she knew i'd probably do bodily harm to myself if i saw her there with someone else. well, she didn't have anyone else with her (to my knowledge) and i didn't have to slit my wrists. although, i wanted to die when i saw tina kiss madonna.. i got up and went to the bathroom and splashed some water on my face. it was horrible.... i felt my heart tearing apart.. i hate that she's questioning my love for her.. there, i said it... my love for her... damnit, i love her.. i love her til i can't love no more.. i love her with every single cell in my body.. and i long for her to love me back.. but, dear god, i don't think she does. she doubts me and therefore she cannot love me.
*sighs and rubs his eyes*
tina, i love you. please, please forgive me.
that's all i can say. that's all i have the power to say.
*clicks update with a heavy heart*