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Dan got the phone call that he will be getting deployed in Afghanistan in January.
He will be there for a year.
I mean, he'll be back every 4 months or so...but still.
I knew it would happen eventually.
But how do you really mentally prepare yourself for something like that?
Of course, I'm going to miss him like crazy....but thats not what is in the back of my head constantly.
I'm just so so terrified that something bad will happen to him.
That I'll lose him.
I know it's irrational...and most people do their time there and come back perfectly fine.
I guess it's my fear of losing him and what we have. He makes me so happy...and comfortable.
I can be myself around him. He CARES about how I feel.
Sigh.
It's not until January and I'm acting like he is leaving tomorrow.
I hope this gets easier.
He will be there for a year.
I mean, he'll be back every 4 months or so...but still.
I knew it would happen eventually.
But how do you really mentally prepare yourself for something like that?
Of course, I'm going to miss him like crazy....but thats not what is in the back of my head constantly.
I'm just so so terrified that something bad will happen to him.
That I'll lose him.
I know it's irrational...and most people do their time there and come back perfectly fine.
I guess it's my fear of losing him and what we have. He makes me so happy...and comfortable.
I can be myself around him. He CARES about how I feel.
Sigh.
It's not until January and I'm acting like he is leaving tomorrow.
I hope this gets easier.