w0rd
Shit,I know why LJ is free now!You can't fucking make your own style with a free account.What kind of bullshit is that?Thats fucking stupid!!!!!Anyway,My name is Jessica,my friends call me Jess I'm 16 5'5 110 pounds or some shit around there.Blonde hair,blue/green eyes.I'm single,but I kinda got my eye on someone.This journal is going to be friends only once I finish working on this layout and shiznit.oH fo' shizzle Jess 2 da ca in the hiz-ous...Ok I think I took that too far.I was in the mood to write,I don't really consider it a poem,but everyone has been calling it that so here it is.
Laying together
entangled in your arms
I'm staring at the ceiling
Thinking of ways to make you stay
I can't possibly have you leave me again
Please don't go...
I don't want another heartbreak
Especially two from the same boy.
I can't relive last years past.
I can't relive all the pain and tears I had.
My emotions are running wild.
I don't know what to feel or what to think.
I'm scared.
I don't know how to keep you here with me.
I can't give you what you want.
I feel like thats all you want me for.
Just please don't leave me again.
I don't want you to think bad about me.
Your opinion in the only one that matters most to me.
I'm scared of you hurting me once again.
I just don't want to lose you.
You mean the world to me.
My depression is trying to take over my brain.
You're all I ever think about.
A silent pain inside my body.
I whisper your name to myself at night.
I feel incomplete without you by my side.
It makes me sad when you're not around.
I could go on describing these feelings forever.
You're all I ever wanted since the day I met you.
You're the only one for me.
I don't want anyone but you.
My friends know you as "The guy I've wanted to be with since the 9th grade."
When I'm with you I feel complete.
I get this warm feeling,
as if nothing bad will happen.
I try not to sleep coz all I do is dream of you.
I want my dreams to become a reality.
I hear the slam of a car door.
Its just the neighbors,but I'm always hoping that its you.
I think of you all day long.
I taste you,smell you,feel you
as if you never left the house,
You never leave my mind.
I don't think you'll ever understand how I feel.
You'll never get how much I care about you.
How much I want to be with you.
I've never felt so alone without you.
At times you make me nervous,
really uncomfortable.
When I know I shouldn't be.
How can the guy I want to spend my whole life with make me feel so nervous and excited at the exact same moment?
I want you to know how I feel.
I already tried explaining it once.
I failed at getting my point across,
just like I fail at everything else.
Your drug addiction worries me
I don't see it,but it somehow effects(or is it affects?) me.
stop ruining your life
You're better than that,
I know you are.
You don't get anything out of doing them.
Our fingers linked together,
holding hands once again.
A feeling of excitement rushes through my body.
I get a warm feeling inside.
A kiss on the forehead every once in a while
It shows me that you care about me,
or at least I hope you do.
What a great guy I could have,
is what I always tells myself.
But does he want to be with me?
Thats the real question.
Does he only want me for one thing?
The one thing I'm truly scared to do.
Afraid to get any closer to him than I already am.
Will he stay if I do it?
Or will he go coz he got what he wanted?
I don't want to find out
I want things to stay the way they are forever...
Forever.
You're leaving
Time to go home.
Our arms wrapped around eachother in an embracing hug.
I think to myself:
Kiss me again
Hold me closer
I'll never leave your side
Please don't leave mine.
Just don't go...
Laying together
entangled in your arms
I'm staring at the ceiling
Thinking of ways to make you stay
I can't possibly have you leave me again
Please don't go...
I don't want another heartbreak
Especially two from the same boy.
I can't relive last years past.
I can't relive all the pain and tears I had.
My emotions are running wild.
I don't know what to feel or what to think.
I'm scared.
I don't know how to keep you here with me.
I can't give you what you want.
I feel like thats all you want me for.
Just please don't leave me again.
I don't want you to think bad about me.
Your opinion in the only one that matters most to me.
I'm scared of you hurting me once again.
I just don't want to lose you.
You mean the world to me.
My depression is trying to take over my brain.
You're all I ever think about.
A silent pain inside my body.
I whisper your name to myself at night.
I feel incomplete without you by my side.
It makes me sad when you're not around.
I could go on describing these feelings forever.
You're all I ever wanted since the day I met you.
You're the only one for me.
I don't want anyone but you.
My friends know you as "The guy I've wanted to be with since the 9th grade."
When I'm with you I feel complete.
I get this warm feeling,
as if nothing bad will happen.
I try not to sleep coz all I do is dream of you.
I want my dreams to become a reality.
I hear the slam of a car door.
Its just the neighbors,but I'm always hoping that its you.
I think of you all day long.
I taste you,smell you,feel you
as if you never left the house,
You never leave my mind.
I don't think you'll ever understand how I feel.
You'll never get how much I care about you.
How much I want to be with you.
I've never felt so alone without you.
At times you make me nervous,
really uncomfortable.
When I know I shouldn't be.
How can the guy I want to spend my whole life with make me feel so nervous and excited at the exact same moment?
I want you to know how I feel.
I already tried explaining it once.
I failed at getting my point across,
just like I fail at everything else.
Your drug addiction worries me
I don't see it,but it somehow effects(or is it affects?) me.
stop ruining your life
You're better than that,
I know you are.
You don't get anything out of doing them.
Our fingers linked together,
holding hands once again.
A feeling of excitement rushes through my body.
I get a warm feeling inside.
A kiss on the forehead every once in a while
It shows me that you care about me,
or at least I hope you do.
What a great guy I could have,
is what I always tells myself.
But does he want to be with me?
Thats the real question.
Does he only want me for one thing?
The one thing I'm truly scared to do.
Afraid to get any closer to him than I already am.
Will he stay if I do it?
Or will he go coz he got what he wanted?
I don't want to find out
I want things to stay the way they are forever...
Forever.
You're leaving
Time to go home.
Our arms wrapped around eachother in an embracing hug.
I think to myself:
Kiss me again
Hold me closer
I'll never leave your side
Please don't leave mine.
Just don't go...