i'm so sick of all these people but i am scared to be alone

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it's been pretty much a week now since i got home from saskatoon and i feel miserable. some mornings i wake up and think i am still back home, but there isn't a day that has gone by that i haven't wished i was back home. it was so good to be around people i know and to have a good time....sure i know people here in calgary, but not on the level that i know everyone in saskatoon. i can't just call them up for a slurpee run or cause i am hongry or to take pictures; it really sucks. oh well, only 13 more months and i'll be done my program and then i can start looking for a job in saskatoon. maybe if i keep my job at HMV for that long, i can just transfer to the one in saskatoon and then start looking for a better job whenst i get there. in due time as they say....

....i wish i could get paid exuberant amounts of money just to be alive.