She'll Do Anything.

Mar 12, 2004 12:41

In front of her mirror she stood, disgusted with herself. She thinks back to all the things that have been said, fat, chubby, big boned. She sucks her stomach in and holds it, thinking if only I could be like that. Maybe they would like me better. Why did I get stuck with this body. This horribly fat body. Maybe if I cut down what I eat, maybe if I just stop eating all together, maybe if I... These things running through her mind.

In the bathroom standing over the toilet, finger in the back of her throat. They don't understand what it's like, to be made fun of, to have been called horrible names, or to see people make a face in disgust at you while walking past. Her breakfast now in the toilet, she cries. What has she become?

All of this to make others happy. Just to please them. If only she could be happy for herself, she thought. But no, she must please everyone else first. Become that eyecandy all the guys want to touch and see. Become that beautiful girl all the others will envy. Can she do it? Probably not but she thinks, but you bet your ass I'll try my best.

Whatever it takes she thinks to herself, washing her mouth out and smiling to herself. Throwing the towel down on the sink she walks out, grabs her snack and begins eating. See now I can have anything, anything I want as long as I get rid of it.
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