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Make it a rule of life never to regret and never to look back. Regret is an appalling waste of energy; you can't build on it; it's only for wallowing in.
After much deliberation i decided that i shuld just write something so that i can keep up my current posting accord, i am not sure if i had one to begin with, but why not pretend so that each week if anything slightly interesting has happened i am able to express it in such a manner that it is not befitting the poor spelling and punctuation that i so elegeantly give all my writing.
I have spent the last week or so at the coast, which to its credit was most wonderful, if all i did was almost drown myself everyday in the surf than it was worth while. By that i mean, i rather enjoyed the swimming i was able to do, espically seeming as it wasnt a patroled beach so there were some from of decent wave for me to frolic in. It gave me a wonderful oppurtunity to expolore the recesses of my mind, for the most past i diddnt know what it was bringing up, and if not for the constant battering i think i would have drifted and not returned, lost in my own reclue thoughts.
The days that were celebreated, mundane to say the least, yet they do remind me of why i truly think that my mother is just to wonderful to describe, and before anyone assume that it has soemthing to do with material things, no, she just made the days so special, the smallest things seem to mean the most to me, so, well, i did cry when, just the simple thing of her buying sparkerlers on new years eve...i dont really care what anyone else thinks, that really ment alot to me, it made me cry just cose she is such a wonderful woman, i am not sure if what i am about to say will make sense, but, when i have children, i wish i could be the father to them, that she has being the mother to me. I am forever emdebted to her.
Other than that the days were nice, just spent time with family, and found out that my oldest cousin proposed to his fianece on christmas eve, as she is partially russin it was there day of celebration. So i found that really sweet, not to mention that i also found out he is putting a moter cross track in his back yard, which is also cool (he drives trucks, so he can get the soil easy, and i think that it is nifty that he has never out grown the charm that i so respecct him for).
I am at a cross roads as to my emotions at the moment, in the fact that i dont have the slightest idea what they are. If you have ever seen a fresco, that is intereperated in a very mondern way and the remastered, you get the piture i do about how i am feeling...aka, no idea. I really missed eveery one so much whilst i was away, and kinda felt down during the nights.
Part two, i am feeling fat again, along with un-attractive...
I need to do more exersie to try and get to a good weight, well not so much weight as body shape, for mine at the moment i wish was better. Along with that, i am alos annoyed at myself for not acctually practicing a few of my insturments, i really should, i am doing like grade 8 or smt stupid for clarint next year early up, and really should look at what i am going to be playing, i also need to do my grade 5 theory, which is worse cose i need to study that. If you havent guessed, this is like a new years resolution thing, but as i am no good at keeping things, these are just a few of the multitude of facts that i wish to fix about myself for the new year, just so i feel i am achaiving all that i can.
When i think of more to write i will, wait, thats a slight lie, i have alot more to write, but best save it for a dire situation where i need to write soemthing...
All i can now say, i wish everyone a wonderful new year, and wish you all wonderful health, and prosperity.
Take care on your trips and what not..i shall miss you all dearly..
Megan, have fun at camp, hope that you have a great time..shall miss you lots
tenchi all...
After much deliberation i decided that i shuld just write something so that i can keep up my current posting accord, i am not sure if i had one to begin with, but why not pretend so that each week if anything slightly interesting has happened i am able to express it in such a manner that it is not befitting the poor spelling and punctuation that i so elegeantly give all my writing.
I have spent the last week or so at the coast, which to its credit was most wonderful, if all i did was almost drown myself everyday in the surf than it was worth while. By that i mean, i rather enjoyed the swimming i was able to do, espically seeming as it wasnt a patroled beach so there were some from of decent wave for me to frolic in. It gave me a wonderful oppurtunity to expolore the recesses of my mind, for the most past i diddnt know what it was bringing up, and if not for the constant battering i think i would have drifted and not returned, lost in my own reclue thoughts.
The days that were celebreated, mundane to say the least, yet they do remind me of why i truly think that my mother is just to wonderful to describe, and before anyone assume that it has soemthing to do with material things, no, she just made the days so special, the smallest things seem to mean the most to me, so, well, i did cry when, just the simple thing of her buying sparkerlers on new years eve...i dont really care what anyone else thinks, that really ment alot to me, it made me cry just cose she is such a wonderful woman, i am not sure if what i am about to say will make sense, but, when i have children, i wish i could be the father to them, that she has being the mother to me. I am forever emdebted to her.
Other than that the days were nice, just spent time with family, and found out that my oldest cousin proposed to his fianece on christmas eve, as she is partially russin it was there day of celebration. So i found that really sweet, not to mention that i also found out he is putting a moter cross track in his back yard, which is also cool (he drives trucks, so he can get the soil easy, and i think that it is nifty that he has never out grown the charm that i so respecct him for).
I am at a cross roads as to my emotions at the moment, in the fact that i dont have the slightest idea what they are. If you have ever seen a fresco, that is intereperated in a very mondern way and the remastered, you get the piture i do about how i am feeling...aka, no idea. I really missed eveery one so much whilst i was away, and kinda felt down during the nights.
Part two, i am feeling fat again, along with un-attractive...
I need to do more exersie to try and get to a good weight, well not so much weight as body shape, for mine at the moment i wish was better. Along with that, i am alos annoyed at myself for not acctually practicing a few of my insturments, i really should, i am doing like grade 8 or smt stupid for clarint next year early up, and really should look at what i am going to be playing, i also need to do my grade 5 theory, which is worse cose i need to study that. If you havent guessed, this is like a new years resolution thing, but as i am no good at keeping things, these are just a few of the multitude of facts that i wish to fix about myself for the new year, just so i feel i am achaiving all that i can.
When i think of more to write i will, wait, thats a slight lie, i have alot more to write, but best save it for a dire situation where i need to write soemthing...
All i can now say, i wish everyone a wonderful new year, and wish you all wonderful health, and prosperity.
Take care on your trips and what not..i shall miss you all dearly..
Megan, have fun at camp, hope that you have a great time..shall miss you lots
tenchi all...