"Do you ever wanna ran away, do you ever lock yourself in your room sono1 hears you screamin?...."
Urgh I hate how guys thin they are on tp of thw weorld when they a girl lies them and then fucks with their head.. Thats how it is ALWAYS for me..Almost like I'm cursed with this problem of finding that special guy for me..I swear to you that I don't even think I could trust a guy now..My emotions have been screwqed with so0o many times that I don'tr even know what a true blue guy is!!! Pretty pathetic if I say !
The reason I am rambling is I have been thinkin on this topic especially with the involvement with Daniel Dykema...To just let you know he started callin me out of the blue to tell me how things r going to change and how the reason he ignored me was because he was still hookin up with Fallon..So I was like whatever inda gave in ..so0o for two days "things changed" but the 3rd day just take a wild guess on how he acted? How about I fill this part in fo ryou... Well he started ignoring me again didn't callme or text me? I'm like wtf?! That was th ebig change?! I don' think so0o ..So i called him today and yesterday n he is lie avoiding me once again..So best believe I have a lil speech for him..goes a lil' something like this....
"Look your the one that started textn n callin me and for you to be ignoring me is dumb because no1 ased you to do all that for me..I hate li games like these and I am not going to look like some lil pitty date for you..So u need to make a decision because I am sick of being ignored and I dont need it..."
So yeah I think thats a good lil speech dont you ?!
I was thinkin about some things and like wat i have come to conclude is that me n jess have become really close....and me n sierra have drifted alot..I dont know its kinda depressing but wat can i do about it..Nothing...because she is so whipped up on her boyfriend that she has no time for LIFE...FREEDOM..ANYTHING!! I don tnow maybe its just me and I NEED to go those big events liek Homecoming, Homecoming game, Prom, the "end of the year trips"...But she doesn;'t care about that ?! How can get so0o attatched on someone that they can do that to you?! Myabe its just me being mad cuz i dont have that but in a way im glad because I dont wanna be restrained from all that ... I can highly doubt the 2 of them will be together passed hgihschool..and if not then she just wasted the best times of her youth you know? Its all about having a great time and just living it up ?
When else do you expect to go dress shoppin for those fromal dances to go all decked out at ?! You dont !! How many times and SERIOUSLY think about will you have in your adulthood to do that?! Unless you nkow alot of people and they're gettin married than not alot...I dont plan to live a concealed life I plan to live my life to the fullest !! you know
I also thought about wat else i would want to do with my life...and i was thinking of being a criminal physcologist i love to think and I can thin about the most craziest things and I would love to learn more on the brain I dont know maybe its just me..but whatver!!
OKAY im done thinking and pondering and trying to explain the way my life is ging to everyone when i know its poitnless cuz no1 reads this so0o bye!!
The reason I am rambling is I have been thinkin on this topic especially with the involvement with Daniel Dykema...To just let you know he started callin me out of the blue to tell me how things r going to change and how the reason he ignored me was because he was still hookin up with Fallon..So I was like whatever inda gave in ..so0o for two days "things changed" but the 3rd day just take a wild guess on how he acted? How about I fill this part in fo ryou... Well he started ignoring me again didn't callme or text me? I'm like wtf?! That was th ebig change?! I don' think so0o ..So i called him today and yesterday n he is lie avoiding me once again..So best believe I have a lil speech for him..goes a lil' something like this....
"Look your the one that started textn n callin me and for you to be ignoring me is dumb because no1 ased you to do all that for me..I hate li games like these and I am not going to look like some lil pitty date for you..So u need to make a decision because I am sick of being ignored and I dont need it..."
So yeah I think thats a good lil speech dont you ?!
I was thinkin about some things and like wat i have come to conclude is that me n jess have become really close....and me n sierra have drifted alot..I dont know its kinda depressing but wat can i do about it..Nothing...because she is so whipped up on her boyfriend that she has no time for LIFE...FREEDOM..ANYTHING!! I don tnow maybe its just me and I NEED to go those big events liek Homecoming, Homecoming game, Prom, the "end of the year trips"...But she doesn;'t care about that ?! How can get so0o attatched on someone that they can do that to you?! Myabe its just me being mad cuz i dont have that but in a way im glad because I dont wanna be restrained from all that ... I can highly doubt the 2 of them will be together passed hgihschool..and if not then she just wasted the best times of her youth you know? Its all about having a great time and just living it up ?
When else do you expect to go dress shoppin for those fromal dances to go all decked out at ?! You dont !! How many times and SERIOUSLY think about will you have in your adulthood to do that?! Unless you nkow alot of people and they're gettin married than not alot...I dont plan to live a concealed life I plan to live my life to the fullest !! you know
I also thought about wat else i would want to do with my life...and i was thinking of being a criminal physcologist i love to think and I can thin about the most craziest things and I would love to learn more on the brain I dont know maybe its just me..but whatver!!
OKAY im done thinking and pondering and trying to explain the way my life is ging to everyone when i know its poitnless cuz no1 reads this so0o bye!!