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Well as yesterday was the shit no joke lol Nikki'z Sweet 16 and it was pretty sweet lol hanged with the crew andrew n gary n jus chilled it was awesome lol andrew was crackin me up! and gary was too lmao nikki didnt talk much... it was C9T! HaHa! i've been pretty damn good i think i'm goin bak to my old roots lol the only thing i member yeaterday was nikki was proud of me for takin care of myself n that we all was gonna b bffe forever n always omg! gary has babies =-) their so cute he talks to em n named em all he's such a sweetie!! i can't tell u bout his babies or he will kill me =-D lol oh yeah did yall kno i "was" the perfect goth? back in the old days lol the days when i was jus so SexY lol andrew made that comment he was like " you've clothes were perfect no holes i mean u had the perfect goth clothes " and nikki was like " she was cute i jus loved her outfits " but thats not me nemore like andrew said this is the new change i'm goin thru and i think ima stick with this one cuz it's the punkish look and i think ti fits me and my attitude lol i mean yeah i was goth but iono jus ain't me no more ~dancez~ man it's been 2 days since i've been to sleep... so tired.. oh yeah sick 2 lol iono what i'm sick with but it hurts to breathe but lmao i'm not gonna stop that lol andrew nikki and gary is sick too lmao i feel sorry for us all ~laughz~ man missy moved =-( i miss her so much and vic n country are finally over for good ~cryz~ he's not commin to ohio nemore so i think ima go to flordia this summer and visit him i miss him so much i hope n prays he comez bak vic told him n a few years to call her and tell her how his life is.. i never thought they would break up i rly didn't i mean i use to look up to them they were the perfect couple n iono what happened makes me think if i'll ever make it but i will i kno i will cuz i love matt! but missy n a.j. are doin good and i'm happy for her cuz she finally found sumone bad newz is that bryant got outta jail and he's messin with her and shes startin to talk to him again.. i hope n pray they don't go out or do sumthin stupid..~ still waitin on the kegger~ ...cuz a.j. is a good man and he fits missy perfectly so hopefully they'll work out but anyways my love life is doin great i'm so happy with matt i rly am i think and pray he is the one for me i rly do nikki says we won't make it and i bet her an 1/8th we would but i dont care about that.. i love my sweet sexy soldier and i hope he loves me bak jus the same.. he's my own personal world now.. i go to skewl n he's all i think bout.. and nikki i love them both they don't kno how close to my heart they are jus yet.. but time will tell.. he's so perfect to me he is so sweet and caring everything i've looked for in the past guys i've went with he's the one that has opened my heart no one else did.. never felt this way it's kinda strange i jus wanna b in his arms and hold him and never let go i wanna be his one n only forever n a day <3

^~ JeSs ~^

((* Lovin Him With Everything I Got *))