because i couldn't be bothered...........

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i've been ging mental the past say week

people being the complete opposite of what they usually are

and i find myself

constantly following other

like... yes sir no sir three bags full sir

and i find myself walkign on eggshels around people

i don't feel i am in control of anything nor anyone

I feel like I go round spending my time tryign to please others

and am getting fucked over in the process

I find i am always the one bowing down

I find i don't have respect form people

and i also find that, letting people in can really fucking hurt

I find that I worry too much about what people think

and i also find that i am easily blamed / yelled at for things

because people knwo i will take it

with a grain of salt

I am not taken seriously

I don't think I ahve anyone who would drop the world for me

if i needed it

and i just don't knwo who i am right now

i don't like what i think i am

I think i am pathetic

I think i need way too much reassurance

but i ahve potential to be awesome

and i just want to be able to show it

No not pathetic

scrub that

I think i am struggling

with myidentity...

but regardless of my identity

all those things about other people

are not going to change regardless if i find y identity or not

I feel i am like....

always the one to follow on

I want to be the one people want to ring

to hangout

I don't want to always be the one making the plans

I want to be wanted