just one moment can change everything

[_tchotchke_]

yeah..so today i went to the viewing for some guy related to me somehow..like my 2nd uncle or something. so yeah, i was the only one under the age of..well, i think 30. or something yeah. it was very boring but i realized during like on the way home, my mom was like " doris...she looked so sad" i was like who's that? she said it's the guy's wife..now widow. and i was just like. oh. so then it got me thinkin...like..that's got to be one of the hardest things if life. like, losing the one you love so much, and knowing you won't see them or talk or just listen to them anymore on earth. definitely one of the scariest things i'd say. but yeah...thankfully we didn't have to stay long and i don't think we're goin to the funeral tomorrow YAY! well, i'm not gonna hope too much though, cause i've done that just to have it not happen the way i hope it would and i hate that feeling. like with a passion. it kills. but yeah

....and everything comes crashing once again....