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< beginrant>Somedays I really wonder what your problem is, you fucker. Im sick of your rudeness towards me and I am sick of you upsetting my best friend. Somedays I really think she deserves better. You are fucking lucky to have her and should kiss the ground she walks on. Fucking A. Im sick of the drama you cause her and the jelousy. Im just sick of you taking for granted what you have. You enrage me.
Yeah. Rage. Angst. Being an emo kid. Its my life. Wow. Im a depressing fuck.
Yesterday Corey came over. And held me. And we got coffee with Ryan. I just need to be held now. As much as possible. Wade noticed that I no longer have that smile and that energy about me. It sucks man. Im just sick of being depressed but is there anything you can do sometimes?
We talked excitedly about her and Jon and the engagement. I seem like a hypocrite because I dislike the institution of marriage-but Im not going to be some psycho nazi who forces her opinions on others. Jons a good guy. I know he wont be the steriotypical lazy degrading patriarchal husband. Corey's a feminist. She knows what shes doing. They both have their own careers and a love no one can touch. I just want her to be happy. Shes my big sister.
Bear came over and we cruised around for a bit. It was nice seeing him after not seeing him for so long. I missed the bear <3
Today Ruth came over. We went to Wendy's, then saw Corpse Bride. I loved it. I kind of liked how it was realistic. The corpse bride had her heart broken twice and never found true love. I enjoy truth. Plus the little skeliton doggie was so cute :)
We walked up to SEB and looked at stars, talked about life love and religion. We hit up Rams horn with Wade Brett and Seit and had a depressing but needed conversation. Its freaky sometimes how parallel my life and Wades are.
Ruth drove me home and now Im here. Came home to Ryan yammering about how he has the greatest girfriend ever.
As of what to do now...probably sleep I guess..
Yeah. Rage. Angst. Being an emo kid. Its my life. Wow. Im a depressing fuck.
Yesterday Corey came over. And held me. And we got coffee with Ryan. I just need to be held now. As much as possible. Wade noticed that I no longer have that smile and that energy about me. It sucks man. Im just sick of being depressed but is there anything you can do sometimes?
We talked excitedly about her and Jon and the engagement. I seem like a hypocrite because I dislike the institution of marriage-but Im not going to be some psycho nazi who forces her opinions on others. Jons a good guy. I know he wont be the steriotypical lazy degrading patriarchal husband. Corey's a feminist. She knows what shes doing. They both have their own careers and a love no one can touch. I just want her to be happy. Shes my big sister.
Bear came over and we cruised around for a bit. It was nice seeing him after not seeing him for so long. I missed the bear <3
Today Ruth came over. We went to Wendy's, then saw Corpse Bride. I loved it. I kind of liked how it was realistic. The corpse bride had her heart broken twice and never found true love. I enjoy truth. Plus the little skeliton doggie was so cute :)
We walked up to SEB and looked at stars, talked about life love and religion. We hit up Rams horn with Wade Brett and Seit and had a depressing but needed conversation. Its freaky sometimes how parallel my life and Wades are.
Ruth drove me home and now Im here. Came home to Ryan yammering about how he has the greatest girfriend ever.
As of what to do now...probably sleep I guess..