Feb 09, 2006 17:11
What the fuck is wrong with me? Why am I always so depressed? Why do I hyperfocus on shit until it makes me sick. Why does everything hurt so damn bad? Oh, right, I forgot-- I'm being punished. Not sure for what, but I must have fucked someone over really good in this or an earlier life.
How many times do I have to ask myself, "Should I stay here?" And no, I don't mean in California. If you can't figure out what I mean, I'm not going to hand hold you.
I'm a guardian. A protector by nature. But, you know... I'm tired of the White Knight. Give me back the apathy of my youth and just let me go.
I'm tired of hurting.