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So, things kinda suck right now. Not in a "everything is against me, horrible things are happening kinda way," but in a more mental, "you're doing this to yourself" kinda way. Sometimes that's even worse, I suppose, because you know that you have the power to stop it, and you're just not.
Classes are going ok. Today was insane. I had three classes in a row, which wasn't bad, but the whole running back and forth thing sucked. They were all in the same building, just on different floor levels and blocks and stuff..It got a little confusing towards the end.
Mark isn't talking to me because he thinks I still like him....God, that fucking kid needs to get over himself....Ronan isn't really talking to me either. I think its because I was mean to Mark the other night and apparently Ronan and Mark are like best friends now. They're practically lovers, they spend so much time together.
I've given up on James. I texted him yesterday and told him that I "give up" and hopes he has a nice life. It kinda sucks knowing that I'll probably never see him again, he's my friend after all, but I guess its probably for the better. Its just weird that he was one of the main reasons I was excited to go back to Ireland and I haven't seen him. I guess its just something I have to deal with. I really need to get rid of people in my life who don't actually want anything to do with me, haha.
I think I've gained back all the weight that I've lost and I really don't understand why. I walk A TON, I eat cereal for breakfast and lunch and I don't have all that much for dinner and its not like its the alcohol, because I've only gone out once so far. I don't know...All I know is its really annoying and I wish it would stop.
Chantelle, two of her friends and I went to the Trinity Rooms on Wednesday and it was fun, but it made me realize that I don't have much of a desire to drink anymore. I mean, I'm just drinking to get drunk and not be so shy...There has to be better ways to go about that.
Tomorrow I'm volunteering at the grocery store, bagging groceries for the SPCA (don't ask me how bagging groceries helps animals...they must give us money or something.) Afterward, we're going out to eat with everyone (a bunch of study abroad students) and I just found out its at an Indian place, so I'm wicked excited about that!!
I've finished my application for UNH and mailed everything out, so hopefully I'll hear back soon. I just hope I didn't leave anything else. I hope I get in, because it would suck to have done all that work for nothing. I guess we'll find out soon enough.
I guess that's it. Nothing exciting to report. I've been kinda down lately, but hopefully that will change soon.
Classes are going ok. Today was insane. I had three classes in a row, which wasn't bad, but the whole running back and forth thing sucked. They were all in the same building, just on different floor levels and blocks and stuff..It got a little confusing towards the end.
Mark isn't talking to me because he thinks I still like him....God, that fucking kid needs to get over himself....Ronan isn't really talking to me either. I think its because I was mean to Mark the other night and apparently Ronan and Mark are like best friends now. They're practically lovers, they spend so much time together.
I've given up on James. I texted him yesterday and told him that I "give up" and hopes he has a nice life. It kinda sucks knowing that I'll probably never see him again, he's my friend after all, but I guess its probably for the better. Its just weird that he was one of the main reasons I was excited to go back to Ireland and I haven't seen him. I guess its just something I have to deal with. I really need to get rid of people in my life who don't actually want anything to do with me, haha.
I think I've gained back all the weight that I've lost and I really don't understand why. I walk A TON, I eat cereal for breakfast and lunch and I don't have all that much for dinner and its not like its the alcohol, because I've only gone out once so far. I don't know...All I know is its really annoying and I wish it would stop.
Chantelle, two of her friends and I went to the Trinity Rooms on Wednesday and it was fun, but it made me realize that I don't have much of a desire to drink anymore. I mean, I'm just drinking to get drunk and not be so shy...There has to be better ways to go about that.
Tomorrow I'm volunteering at the grocery store, bagging groceries for the SPCA (don't ask me how bagging groceries helps animals...they must give us money or something.) Afterward, we're going out to eat with everyone (a bunch of study abroad students) and I just found out its at an Indian place, so I'm wicked excited about that!!
I've finished my application for UNH and mailed everything out, so hopefully I'll hear back soon. I just hope I didn't leave anything else. I hope I get in, because it would suck to have done all that work for nothing. I guess we'll find out soon enough.
I guess that's it. Nothing exciting to report. I've been kinda down lately, but hopefully that will change soon.