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Nobody in town has been able to sleep in days. It is hard not to feel guilty for it - to feel guilty knowing that perhaps if I'd made a different choice, I might be able to do something to aid the town, I might know more than I do.
But I made the choice I did and I can't regret it. I won't. Besides, there are benefits.
The strangest thing about this spell is that it simply doesn't make sense. When at first we started noticing the effects, I thought perhaps this was something done to weaken us, some sort of plot. And yet days have passed and not only has nothing out of the ordinary - beyond the sleep itself - has happened. And apparently the lack of sleep is affecting Spike and the other demons as well, so ... none of this makes any sense.
Willow and I are going to have to research, to see if there's something that we're missing. Research - I can do research. I just hope - I haven't tried to cast any spells since I returned. And I just don't know...what I have left.
And Dawn seems so sad and depressed lately. I can't tell if it's just the lack of sleep or something else is troubling her. I have to see if she'll talk to me, that she knows I still love her. Some of my time, as an angel I mean, seems strangely clouded, almost as if it happened to somebody else. And yet, I almost remember her being this unhappy often. It is strange that I notice and feel more now than I did then but it does renew my belief that I did make the right decision, however strange things feel now.
But I made the choice I did and I can't regret it. I won't. Besides, there are benefits.
The strangest thing about this spell is that it simply doesn't make sense. When at first we started noticing the effects, I thought perhaps this was something done to weaken us, some sort of plot. And yet days have passed and not only has nothing out of the ordinary - beyond the sleep itself - has happened. And apparently the lack of sleep is affecting Spike and the other demons as well, so ... none of this makes any sense.
Willow and I are going to have to research, to see if there's something that we're missing. Research - I can do research. I just hope - I haven't tried to cast any spells since I returned. And I just don't know...what I have left.
And Dawn seems so sad and depressed lately. I can't tell if it's just the lack of sleep or something else is troubling her. I have to see if she'll talk to me, that she knows I still love her. Some of my time, as an angel I mean, seems strangely clouded, almost as if it happened to somebody else. And yet, I almost remember her being this unhappy often. It is strange that I notice and feel more now than I did then but it does renew my belief that I did make the right decision, however strange things feel now.