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I wonder how I come across to other people.
But then immediately I think maybe it'd be better I didn't know.
I just don't like myself.
I wonder if I come across as happy.
Inside.. I really just don't like myself.
I come home after a fun night and instead of being happy, I'm crying.
Why? Becaue all I can think of is something stupid I may have said, something I should have said, why can't I be like everyone else? Why am I so ME. I get so carried away.
And then I hate my questioning myself so much and wondering why I can't just be happy being who I am.
So I just end up deeper in my hole of self-loathing.
Anyway. I'll be fine.
But then immediately I think maybe it'd be better I didn't know.
I just don't like myself.
I wonder if I come across as happy.
Inside.. I really just don't like myself.
I come home after a fun night and instead of being happy, I'm crying.
Why? Becaue all I can think of is something stupid I may have said, something I should have said, why can't I be like everyone else? Why am I so ME. I get so carried away.
And then I hate my questioning myself so much and wondering why I can't just be happy being who I am.
So I just end up deeper in my hole of self-loathing.
Anyway. I'll be fine.