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[_talie]

so i got the facts straight [as far as i know]... so this whole weekend i believed billy when he said it was just a kiss. i think i only did because i wanted to...& because tori told me to. but the thing that got me feeling that wasn't it- was when i asked tori and she said "just believe your boyfriend." i asked her if she was sorry...she said "what do you think?" is that how you are? you are just a FUCKING BITCH you think you are just going to get away with this by avoiding me & everyone-& this. but anyways.. when matt came over he told me whatever tori told him. it was the same thing anna and jess told me. those three said hj finger dry sex right? billy swears to god 100% that it wasnt that. yes it was more then making out & whatever but i duno i dont want to say. i'm assuming billys being truthful. cause u kno how tori lies..so she prolly lied to all 3 of them you know? but oh well i know it will get out to me soon if theres anything else. i almost broke up with him. i wanted to. he wouldnt let me. it makes sense to stay with him but it makes sense to let him go. but i know if i did break up with him i'd end up right back with him- so why should i? just to let her feel like she got what she wanted. I have never liked,cheated, did stuff with anyyyyy guy my friends have everrrr liked. but you know how it is- some people like to be concieted little bitch :o). i'm glad she lost so much. not just because of what she did to me, but for not being real - ever. very very messed up. very.

oh and how come that night when i called you, Tori, you asked me to please not tell anyone about this. why do you hide everything? so people will like you? maybe you shouldn't be such a fuck up & then you wouldnt have that problem. you cry and beg your way out of everything. not this time you bitch.

i just want to hit you.