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i'm sick of being alone. i miss my "best friends". what happened to that? i really miss sara. i think thats weird because for some reason i feel closer to her then i have ever been. even though nothing has changed [for the better or worst] between us. she just makes my heart feel better when i'm with her. :( aww i'm gunna cry. she needs to get home SOON.
i think i'm getting better at dealing with all these changes. like- all my old friends. i miss them to death. but we all have changed. i thought it was just a few people. but its everyone- even me. like--...i feel weird saying this but i dont miss mat. i dont cry cause he is gone anymore. actually he never crosses my mind. i dont go out of my way to call people anymore. ..i just wish things were back to normal and we all stayed on the asme track. but i just want to say i love all of you- all my best friends that aren't my best friends no longer. you all will have a piece of my heart. i'm so happy we are growing so much more mature. its beautiful. :o). even though through time i have seen through some people- and that caused us to grow apart- i wish you the best. but what the hell this sounds like a suicide letter so if you guys wanna catch up you know where i am.
ok i'm gunna go now cause christian noel [CHRISTMAS] is READING THIS!
i think i'm getting better at dealing with all these changes. like- all my old friends. i miss them to death. but we all have changed. i thought it was just a few people. but its everyone- even me. like--...i feel weird saying this but i dont miss mat. i dont cry cause he is gone anymore. actually he never crosses my mind. i dont go out of my way to call people anymore. ..i just wish things were back to normal and we all stayed on the asme track. but i just want to say i love all of you- all my best friends that aren't my best friends no longer. you all will have a piece of my heart. i'm so happy we are growing so much more mature. its beautiful. :o). even though through time i have seen through some people- and that caused us to grow apart- i wish you the best. but what the hell this sounds like a suicide letter so if you guys wanna catch up you know where i am.
ok i'm gunna go now cause christian noel [CHRISTMAS] is READING THIS!