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[_takemeback]

You gave me everything, and i tore your heart out over and over. Words can not express how sorry i am. Everything mean i ever said or did to you, i wish i could take back, i know i can't, the damage is done. I'm a weak person. Please don't ever think for a second that i never loved you or cared about you, because i did and i still do. You probaly wont believe me, but hurting you hurt me. When i see you i cry, for hours, because i feel like such a stupid idiot for what i did. (I actually only cheated on you twice, with jordan and then hector on new years, i lied about the rest. At the time i was angry and i wanted something that would hit you hard). I'm still so sorry. I wish i could tell you this to your face, but i figured you would not listen, and i would just cry the whole time. Lately a day has not gone by that i have not hated myself. I'm not wirting this message because i want you to take me back, i just want you to know how sorry i am for two years of hell. I know you hate me,and you have reasons too, but please don't. You have a heart of fucking gold and any girl will be so lucky to have you. I have never felt like this after all the times we have broken up, maby because i know in my heart that we are over. I believe that it is true when people say they will always love their first love, you were mine, and from here on out every boy i date will never compare to you. A couple nights ago jordan told me he was falling in love with me, i looked at him and cryed and cryed and cryed. I told him that he could not ever say that to me because it will never compare to the way you said it to me. I hope that after reading this you atleast get out of it that i am sorry with every bone in my body. I love you Christopher John Kurtzke, and that will never change. I'm weak for you.

Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.

Love always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends.

L o v e N e v e r F a i l s.

And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.