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a new start!
i seem to be terribly paranoid..
perhaps its some residual genetic urges from my migrant ancestors..
perhaps i'm just paranoid. i'm not sure who i'm fleeing - people i know who fear have sought out my previous (almost empty) journal(s) and might be spying on me? ex girlfriends? my own embarrassment at my banal ramblings?
whatever it is, here i am.
perhaps i'll write in this one more.
its funny. i went to a focus group today [as i write about my 'real' life, i'm already regretting it.. what if a 'real' person tracked me down through tidbits like these? how long till i'm on the livejournal run again!?] and i had to pretend to have a totally different life to fulfill the requirements.. job, lifestyle etc. i had to run a small office. so i was a travel agent. specializing in arctic and antarctic travel. but even in this new role i felt compelled to make sure everyone round the table knew exactly who i was really. i couldn't let them think i was ditzy or sporty or organised or un-educated or anything - good or bad - that i'm not. i could exaggerate things about me, but i couldn't take on attributes (even good ones) that aren't mine.
so when i made this journal i thought maybe i'd make a whole new online persona for myself.
but by the time i'd finished entering my interests - little old me, back again!
i seem to be terribly paranoid..
perhaps its some residual genetic urges from my migrant ancestors..
perhaps i'm just paranoid. i'm not sure who i'm fleeing - people i know who fear have sought out my previous (almost empty) journal(s) and might be spying on me? ex girlfriends? my own embarrassment at my banal ramblings?
whatever it is, here i am.
perhaps i'll write in this one more.
its funny. i went to a focus group today [as i write about my 'real' life, i'm already regretting it.. what if a 'real' person tracked me down through tidbits like these? how long till i'm on the livejournal run again!?] and i had to pretend to have a totally different life to fulfill the requirements.. job, lifestyle etc. i had to run a small office. so i was a travel agent. specializing in arctic and antarctic travel. but even in this new role i felt compelled to make sure everyone round the table knew exactly who i was really. i couldn't let them think i was ditzy or sporty or organised or un-educated or anything - good or bad - that i'm not. i could exaggerate things about me, but i couldn't take on attributes (even good ones) that aren't mine.
so when i made this journal i thought maybe i'd make a whole new online persona for myself.
but by the time i'd finished entering my interests - little old me, back again!