sashay away
Today I was in the back making coffee and I realized I forgot to bring my half and half AND my sugar cause I don't want to use the crap that's been sitting around forever at my work. I pulled the creamer down and it was the powder kind and I poured it all over my head so I'm standing there covered in creamer powder so I went in the bathroom and took my shirt off and shook it out and here we are. It was pretty funny.
Yesterday was really depressing. I thought I was gonna go get brunch with Lisa but we were too hungover so I dropped her off and then I went home and laid in bed ALL DAY. I thought about how I don't want this year to happen. I want years to stop happening. I know I'm gonna continue to be alone. I thought about how this is gonna be my life for another year and years to come. I also watched a marathon of Zack Galifinakis movies so that helped a little to ease my pain. I was also depressed for Wendy because her Dad passed away unexpectedly and I'm not sure why yet. She said she's not ready to talk about it and I completely understand. I hope she comes back home so I can be there for her. Nothing I can say is going to make her feel better but I will try. She always tries to make me feel better. I can never express to her how grateful I am for that. I love her and Jim and Carson.
I went to Kamil's house with Lisa and it was as fun as it could be. I like hanging out with them but my sadness is still there in the back of my mind. Lisa saved me cause she kissed me at midnight THUS breaking the curse that nobody will kiss me for another year (even though they prob won't).
I was just spacing out at work thinking about how I like but hate social media at the same time. I like it because it tells me what's going on in regards to things I like or care about but then it tells me many things about stuff I hate and do not care about. Some of those things would be:
knowing every detail of everybody's day, seeing a picture of the same person 3-4 times per day, seeing people's food, seeing what other people like and I was gonna say seeing people's pets but I would rather see their pets than them.
I get no joy out of it other than seeing my ex-boyfriends downgrade (which they do on the reg). I have seen it happen twice this year and I'm okay with that!!!
I'm going out after work to grab a drink with Melody and I hope that'll be fun. I think something is going on with her and Jason, I'm not sure though. I will ask her tonight. Also, Drew is acting really weird. A few weeks ago things got weird between because I was telling him about how I get used over and over again and I was crying and he kissed me. I didn't want him to do that and I wanted him to go away. I thought to myself that bastard, I'm sitting here telling him about how men use me because they want to get in my pants and he........tries to get in my pants? Then he commented to me the other day that sleeping with a married woman was "on his bucket list" and he had the opportunity to do that the other night but didn't. What a slimeball, I thought he was different all these years.
Yesterday was really depressing. I thought I was gonna go get brunch with Lisa but we were too hungover so I dropped her off and then I went home and laid in bed ALL DAY. I thought about how I don't want this year to happen. I want years to stop happening. I know I'm gonna continue to be alone. I thought about how this is gonna be my life for another year and years to come. I also watched a marathon of Zack Galifinakis movies so that helped a little to ease my pain. I was also depressed for Wendy because her Dad passed away unexpectedly and I'm not sure why yet. She said she's not ready to talk about it and I completely understand. I hope she comes back home so I can be there for her. Nothing I can say is going to make her feel better but I will try. She always tries to make me feel better. I can never express to her how grateful I am for that. I love her and Jim and Carson.
I went to Kamil's house with Lisa and it was as fun as it could be. I like hanging out with them but my sadness is still there in the back of my mind. Lisa saved me cause she kissed me at midnight THUS breaking the curse that nobody will kiss me for another year (even though they prob won't).
I was just spacing out at work thinking about how I like but hate social media at the same time. I like it because it tells me what's going on in regards to things I like or care about but then it tells me many things about stuff I hate and do not care about. Some of those things would be:
knowing every detail of everybody's day, seeing a picture of the same person 3-4 times per day, seeing people's food, seeing what other people like and I was gonna say seeing people's pets but I would rather see their pets than them.
I get no joy out of it other than seeing my ex-boyfriends downgrade (which they do on the reg). I have seen it happen twice this year and I'm okay with that!!!
I'm going out after work to grab a drink with Melody and I hope that'll be fun. I think something is going on with her and Jason, I'm not sure though. I will ask her tonight. Also, Drew is acting really weird. A few weeks ago things got weird between because I was telling him about how I get used over and over again and I was crying and he kissed me. I didn't want him to do that and I wanted him to go away. I thought to myself that bastard, I'm sitting here telling him about how men use me because they want to get in my pants and he........tries to get in my pants? Then he commented to me the other day that sleeping with a married woman was "on his bucket list" and he had the opportunity to do that the other night but didn't. What a slimeball, I thought he was different all these years.