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Lately I feel like everything is suffocating me. Oh, lord. That sounds emo. But it's true. I'm not really happy with anything in my life right now. But the funny thing is, I don't know what to do to change it. I feel like just saying fuck it all and never waking up. What is the point? Every day all I do is sleep, eat, fuck things up, and watch tv. It's so monotone. I want one great day to erase all the bad ones. I want one good guy to make all the others disappear. I want one friend who will listen to me and try to help me instead of just sitting there while I cover my body with scars. I want one parent who when I tell them I'm not happy and I want to talk to someone will actually find some one for me to talk to. I want someone to hold me and tell me I am the most beautiful thing they've ever seen and mean it. I want way to much. But for just once, I want to get it.