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i'm home all alone today...like every day...but today it's worse 'cause therapy has been so bad the last couple of weeks.
i'm just feeling really weak and scared and fucked up.
i'm *so* close to calling my brother and i don't even know why...if i want to yell at him or tell him i love him or ask him to get me off...i dunno...but nothing good ever happens when i talk to him and everyone will be so disappointed if i do it...but i just need someone right now...someone who understands me and he understands me...even if he uses it in the wrong way.
i'm just so fucking weak i don't know what to do....
i'm just feeling really weak and scared and fucked up.
i'm *so* close to calling my brother and i don't even know why...if i want to yell at him or tell him i love him or ask him to get me off...i dunno...but nothing good ever happens when i talk to him and everyone will be so disappointed if i do it...but i just need someone right now...someone who understands me and he understands me...even if he uses it in the wrong way.
i'm just so fucking weak i don't know what to do....