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it has officially been one whole day with no myspace
i will defiantely be okay...
so will you
Sometime you sit and think and think and think....
i do it all he time. i need to stop i need to just let everything happen. there has been such a change in my life and everything is amazing. i now its dumb to you but im quoting kelly clarkson... line by line
"heres the thing we started out friends it was cool but it was all pretend."
we did start out friends, we both wanted a relationship nad we knew it. so we did it.
"dedicated you took the time, wasnt long till i called you mine"
a couple weeks went by... we sat in his room he told me there was room for a third.. i took the position.
"and all youd hear me say is how i picture me with you"
who was i really trying to convince?
"since youve been gone, i can breathe for the first time.."
i can go out i can not have to call every thirty seconds i dont have to be worried for you to be mad at me. I can talk about work with out you being jealous
"im so moving on"
Ken...love of my life
"thanks to you , now i get what i want."
i really do though i dont have to lie to m parents they are pretty decent to me occasionally, i dont have to fight with them because you are a lowlife. it was okay before but you arent worth it.
"how can i put it you put me on...i even fell for the stupid love song"
I thought it would be okay now. i thought we would always talk and be friends like you said. i watched you cry because i was leaving. we were seperating.. i thought that meant that you cared and you didnt want to lose me in everyway... guess not. it was all a big game i suppose.
"How come i never hear you say i just want to be with you? i guess you never felt that way"
you said it but tose words were empty
"you had your chance you blew it"
we both know this...
"shut your mouth i just cant take it... again and again and again"
you would thik that you would just want to stay out of my life. but you keep managing to find your way back in it . stay out. i dont want to hear it. everytime you say that you hate me i know that if your really hated me than you wouldnt call me tell me that you hated me. it was hard to cut you out of my life. hard to block your number and email and life. i miss our memories but they are fading and it sucks i guess. it scares me for my futur becuse i dont want to open up in case i get fucked over...
we had a good sex life though didnt we? but i think thats all we had
i still have the poem and the picture.... i will never let them go....
Peace sir.
thanks for coming out. this is me signing off of our life. finally. but im ready now. i dont need you or know you i nvere want to. im to happy to want to know you or pretty much anyone who does.