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I was just going through my old live journal..Oh my goodness its so sad i was just sitting here crying..Every entry is like "seeing erik today!" "oh erik came over we had soo much fun!" And im really like feeling how the situation is..We seriously used to see eachother like every other day..And we would go insane if we didnt see eachother for a few days..and now its like been 4 months since everythings been back in order..Its horrible. Nobody take anybody for granite..because i didnt think i would not be able to see erik for this long, and i still cant..IT SUCKS! jesus friging christ i hate my parents..if they think that this shit is going away its fucking not..I will be with erik for as long as it takes for us to see eachother again and i really dont care what they say..ok everybody just dont get caught. it sucks.
I just miss him so much..And i keep getting all these mixed feelings like he doesnt want to be with me anymore, and maybe he likes somebody else or he just wants to be single for a while..I dont knowwww!!!
Please dont feel bad for me, ive had way too much sympathy given to me in the past 4 months and by now i just need to let it out, im a strong girl, anybody who knows me knows that..I dont take shit from people and im pretty stronged willed..but not seeing erik makes me want to just puke.
Why is it that the things we want most in life are so far away? do you ever notice that..im so fucking depressed all the time and im ready to fucking move out of my house bcus i cant fucking deal with this anymore..Its past ridiculous and my familys worried about me, as well they should be.
This is NOT who i am..im a happy, outgoing, stong person who loves to be around people, and being busy, and loving everyone..But instead ive been substituting those for: Pissed off, to myself, weak person who wants to just get out of her house and away from her family, and is busy with things that i dont care to do.
Ok sorry just had to let that out. Comment, but please dont feel sorry for me..im serious im just being bitchy and im not looking for anything..I just NEEDDDD to get this shit out somehow
I just miss him so much..And i keep getting all these mixed feelings like he doesnt want to be with me anymore, and maybe he likes somebody else or he just wants to be single for a while..I dont knowwww!!!
Please dont feel bad for me, ive had way too much sympathy given to me in the past 4 months and by now i just need to let it out, im a strong girl, anybody who knows me knows that..I dont take shit from people and im pretty stronged willed..but not seeing erik makes me want to just puke.
Why is it that the things we want most in life are so far away? do you ever notice that..im so fucking depressed all the time and im ready to fucking move out of my house bcus i cant fucking deal with this anymore..Its past ridiculous and my familys worried about me, as well they should be.
This is NOT who i am..im a happy, outgoing, stong person who loves to be around people, and being busy, and loving everyone..But instead ive been substituting those for: Pissed off, to myself, weak person who wants to just get out of her house and away from her family, and is busy with things that i dont care to do.
Ok sorry just had to let that out. Comment, but please dont feel sorry for me..im serious im just being bitchy and im not looking for anything..I just NEEDDDD to get this shit out somehow