jealousy turning saints into the sea
wow. been a really long time since i wrote in this. i guess its been a really long time since i have even talked to people about serious stuff. well sorta. i guess everyone knows whats going on. but they don't know how i feel. i don't even know how i feel.
why can't things go back to the way they used to be. they were so perfect. but they had to get screwed up.
i need to get my mind off of all this sacs drama. i hate it. i should just go to churchill. become a cheerleader. go off to design school. and never look back.
theres only a few people i would miss. okay well theres alot. but only a few that would possibly keep me here. but when i do graduate i am leaving. who knows maybe i will crush my dream of going to baylor and go to NYU or something.
wow this is all pretty depressing. i guess that is how i am feeling. my perfect life is going down slowly. actually no ones life is perfect i guess i just looked beyond imperfections. maybe i can keep doing that.
i just need to get out. i can not wait until summer comes and i am out of school. i will be gone almost all of june. and probably july too. then on october 4, 2005 i will get my drivers licsense and go whereever i want whenever.
just think. only 3 more years til college.
why couldn't things have worked out for us. everytime we tried again we just messed it up. this is what i have wanted for ever and now it is gone. maybe there is a reason. i know God has a plan.
i need to focus on something undepressing like cheerleading. tryouts are on thursday. i just have to focus on cheerleading and school.and God. okay and family and friends.
man i am tired. goodbye.
why can't things go back to the way they used to be. they were so perfect. but they had to get screwed up.
i need to get my mind off of all this sacs drama. i hate it. i should just go to churchill. become a cheerleader. go off to design school. and never look back.
theres only a few people i would miss. okay well theres alot. but only a few that would possibly keep me here. but when i do graduate i am leaving. who knows maybe i will crush my dream of going to baylor and go to NYU or something.
wow this is all pretty depressing. i guess that is how i am feeling. my perfect life is going down slowly. actually no ones life is perfect i guess i just looked beyond imperfections. maybe i can keep doing that.
i just need to get out. i can not wait until summer comes and i am out of school. i will be gone almost all of june. and probably july too. then on october 4, 2005 i will get my drivers licsense and go whereever i want whenever.
just think. only 3 more years til college.
why couldn't things have worked out for us. everytime we tried again we just messed it up. this is what i have wanted for ever and now it is gone. maybe there is a reason. i know God has a plan.
i need to focus on something undepressing like cheerleading. tryouts are on thursday. i just have to focus on cheerleading and school.and God. okay and family and friends.
man i am tired. goodbye.