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Last night we all gathered into Studio 2 and watched the first part of this weeks "So You Think You Can Dance" and I made the prediction that Dmitri and Martha were going to get kicked off. We came back in studio 2 today after the master class and I WAS CORRECT. Both Martha and Dmitri were cut and that's okay because I didn't really like them anyway. I was awfully surprised that Natalee was in the bottom 2 though. I think it's really easy to pick which male dancers are going to go, because the only one I really enjoy watching is Travis. But it's harder with the girls because they're all excellent. What a showww. Definitely the best ever created.
If anyone knows what I'm talking about and saw this weeks episodes, leave me comments so we can talk about Travis & Heidi's contemporary piece. Can we say AMAZING?! Because I pretty much was bawling. God it was gorgeoussss.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=AIgjSoccCz0&search=travis%20and%20heidi
Anyyywayyy. Hope everyone is enjoying their summer, I know I enjoyed my week down the shore. I'm dancing right now at "Shake and Break" in NYC and it's pretty much awesome. Really hard, but I'm learning a lot and it's a great experience. I'm going back down to the shore on Sunday.
Here's a thought. My grandparents on my mom's side drove me to NYC after I had dinner and spent the night with them. I really love them. I really really really do. I know that everyone loves their grandparents but I haven't ever really had a relationship with them. We moved from New Jersey when I was really young and never got to have anything but enjoying my grandmom's awesome milk shakes and shrieking with joy whenever my pop-pop used to pretend he was a vampire. I always waited for the day when I got to go into the backyard when it was dark and see if I could survive an Indian attack with my pop-pop. We moved before I ever got the chance.
It made me really sad when I was there looking at the backyard. The darkness no longer scared me and it was kind of disheartening realizing that I would never get the chance to show my pop-pop that I was just as brave as Danny. I'm never going to be able to just drive to my grandparents house whenever I'm feeling lonely. I decided that I'm going to start calling them once a week like my mom does, only I'll have my own special day to do it. I want to know what's going on with my family and I can't know that when I live in NC. For example, my 3rd oldest cousin turned 21 last Friday, my youngest cousin (who shares my birthday and my middle name!) broke her nose, and my second youngest cousin has become like this amazing swimmer. My oldest cousin is living with an foriegn guy who apparently already has 3 kids? And my grandparents and my aunt and uncle are moving into some enormous house together. The youngest of 2 male cousins has become some sort of Tennis prodigy. How did I not know any of that?
My pop-pop has an obsession with "Phantom of the Opera". On my oldest cousin Courtney's
16th birthday he took her to see it. On her 18th birthday he took her to see "Les Miserables". Kiki was apparently the only cousin who appreciated that sort of her trip with him. Kendall and Marky don't like that sort of the thing, and the youngest cousins haven't even hit puberty yet. I feel like I'm being deprived of that trip with him. There's nothing I really want more right now then to have him take me to a show. I'm trying to plan a trip to fly up in the holiday season to go see "Phantom" with him, because it's coming to a theatre near where he lives. It's a thought that kind of keeps me smiling throughout the day.
My grandparents are moving out of their house. They've lived in the same house for 33 years. That's 2x longer than I've even been alive. Just the thought of them living there for that long brings up so many different feelings and I really don't even know why.
They took me out to Wendy's and when we were done it was pouring rain as we ran out into the car. Even though it was wet and miserable my pop-pop still went around the car to open the car door for my grandmom. It's almost crazy to think that they've been married and in love for over 50 years. It seems like everyone these days gets divorced. I guess I'm one of the lucky ones.. my parents are the only ones out of my mom's siblings who "got it right" the first time.
When they drove me to the city we drove through a kind of isolated country area with these really beautiful houses built into the hillside. It got me thinking about what kind of people lived in those houses, and what their lives were like. I imagined myself living in a beautiful house with a husband and a family and I really liked what I had planned. It made me wonder how I can possibly want 2 COMPLETELY different things. How can I want to be this Broadway dance star and live in the dirty, noisy city, and also want to live a quiet, happy marriage and life?
When I was little and I looked into the future the only thing I was able to see was me performing on Broadway. But now when I look it all just becomes so unclear. Maybe all I really want to be in 10 years is married and happy. Maybe I don't need what I've spent my whole life striving for. It's a terrifying thought but at the same time it's almost a relief to know that I have a somewhat shakey "Plan B". Not that I can just plan to fall in love and start a family at age 26.. but it makes me smile to know that if happy is all I ever am in my life, it's gonna be alright.
I should be home sometime during the first week of August. I miss you guys! Hope everyone is having fun ♥
If anyone knows what I'm talking about and saw this weeks episodes, leave me comments so we can talk about Travis & Heidi's contemporary piece. Can we say AMAZING?! Because I pretty much was bawling. God it was gorgeoussss.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=AIgjSoccCz0&search=travis%20and%20heidi
Anyyywayyy. Hope everyone is enjoying their summer, I know I enjoyed my week down the shore. I'm dancing right now at "Shake and Break" in NYC and it's pretty much awesome. Really hard, but I'm learning a lot and it's a great experience. I'm going back down to the shore on Sunday.
Here's a thought. My grandparents on my mom's side drove me to NYC after I had dinner and spent the night with them. I really love them. I really really really do. I know that everyone loves their grandparents but I haven't ever really had a relationship with them. We moved from New Jersey when I was really young and never got to have anything but enjoying my grandmom's awesome milk shakes and shrieking with joy whenever my pop-pop used to pretend he was a vampire. I always waited for the day when I got to go into the backyard when it was dark and see if I could survive an Indian attack with my pop-pop. We moved before I ever got the chance.
It made me really sad when I was there looking at the backyard. The darkness no longer scared me and it was kind of disheartening realizing that I would never get the chance to show my pop-pop that I was just as brave as Danny. I'm never going to be able to just drive to my grandparents house whenever I'm feeling lonely. I decided that I'm going to start calling them once a week like my mom does, only I'll have my own special day to do it. I want to know what's going on with my family and I can't know that when I live in NC. For example, my 3rd oldest cousin turned 21 last Friday, my youngest cousin (who shares my birthday and my middle name!) broke her nose, and my second youngest cousin has become like this amazing swimmer. My oldest cousin is living with an foriegn guy who apparently already has 3 kids? And my grandparents and my aunt and uncle are moving into some enormous house together. The youngest of 2 male cousins has become some sort of Tennis prodigy. How did I not know any of that?
My pop-pop has an obsession with "Phantom of the Opera". On my oldest cousin Courtney's
16th birthday he took her to see it. On her 18th birthday he took her to see "Les Miserables". Kiki was apparently the only cousin who appreciated that sort of her trip with him. Kendall and Marky don't like that sort of the thing, and the youngest cousins haven't even hit puberty yet. I feel like I'm being deprived of that trip with him. There's nothing I really want more right now then to have him take me to a show. I'm trying to plan a trip to fly up in the holiday season to go see "Phantom" with him, because it's coming to a theatre near where he lives. It's a thought that kind of keeps me smiling throughout the day.
My grandparents are moving out of their house. They've lived in the same house for 33 years. That's 2x longer than I've even been alive. Just the thought of them living there for that long brings up so many different feelings and I really don't even know why.
They took me out to Wendy's and when we were done it was pouring rain as we ran out into the car. Even though it was wet and miserable my pop-pop still went around the car to open the car door for my grandmom. It's almost crazy to think that they've been married and in love for over 50 years. It seems like everyone these days gets divorced. I guess I'm one of the lucky ones.. my parents are the only ones out of my mom's siblings who "got it right" the first time.
When they drove me to the city we drove through a kind of isolated country area with these really beautiful houses built into the hillside. It got me thinking about what kind of people lived in those houses, and what their lives were like. I imagined myself living in a beautiful house with a husband and a family and I really liked what I had planned. It made me wonder how I can possibly want 2 COMPLETELY different things. How can I want to be this Broadway dance star and live in the dirty, noisy city, and also want to live a quiet, happy marriage and life?
When I was little and I looked into the future the only thing I was able to see was me performing on Broadway. But now when I look it all just becomes so unclear. Maybe all I really want to be in 10 years is married and happy. Maybe I don't need what I've spent my whole life striving for. It's a terrifying thought but at the same time it's almost a relief to know that I have a somewhat shakey "Plan B". Not that I can just plan to fall in love and start a family at age 26.. but it makes me smile to know that if happy is all I ever am in my life, it's gonna be alright.
I should be home sometime during the first week of August. I miss you guys! Hope everyone is having fun ♥