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-sigh-
where do i start?
i dont mean to be boring, but i need to vent.
im tired of my disfunctional family. & everyone & their problems. i wish everyone could go back to being happy. & i wish for one year my family could just get together for thanksgiving or christmas or something, and just get along, and be happy with what we have.
school is wearing me down. i never expected it to be like this. its like im working so damn hard for everyone else. i have to please my mom. i have to satisfy my family,compaired to my straight A's cousin.
im so tired of crying. i cry about everything. the littlest things. i hate it. i hate holding it back.
nothings ever good enough for me.i feel like im such a horrible person. i wont let anyone get close to me because im too afraid.
today i saw my unlce who i havnt seen in the longest time. he's going through a really hard time so hes gonna stay with us, my mom says for tonight, but i dont know about that. its weird, him staying here.. it reminds me of when i was little, and he lived with us.
i just need to get my to get my thoughts together. sorry for taking it out on you.
i have a huge history project to do, and i have no idea what im going to do about it. i also need to work on my drama project. so i need to call rachael & jaclyn.
I reall hope it stops raining sometime soon, i think some sunshine would be great right about now.