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what am i going to do..... Lindsey said she doesnt want to be with me anymore she left me all of these messages when i was asleep and i read them now what am i supposed to do? I dont want to lose her she is my essence of life,my pulse,my breath, all i can do is sit here and cry listening to HIM what am i supposed to do??? is this the way my whole life will go? is this how it is going to be after she told me she had faith in us and that she wasnt going anywhere? again im alone the only person to comfort me is my own reflection i look in my mirror and i do not see her i just see me all alone,what the fuck do i need to do? did i do something wrong?*flops down* yet another reason i believe tehre is no god, anything good that has come to me and helped me that selfish bastard has taken away i rebell against anyone who tells me there is one because of this and many other reasons.....FUCK ANYONE WHO HAS EVER TOLD ME THEY LOVED ME AND THEN SAID WE NEED TO SPLIT! im sorry but i am very hurt and upset right now today all i am possibly going to do is play playstation smoke ciggs and take my meds.... i might talk to someone but i dont know mostly ill be doing all of this crying cuz this shit fucking hurts I DID NOTHING TO YOU LINDSEY! and why did you cut yourself why? WHY!?! u know if i was there i would have pinned you down and tied you up if u even thought it.... i guess i just dont mean much to you or something yes as u read this you might be hurt but damnit Lindsey i fucking love you and hearing you do that and the shit you were saying last night hurt me worse then anything i or you could ever fucking imagine im completley willing to put my whole life aside for you everything and everyone in it just to answer you beckon call I love you regardless of cuts on your body or not just please talk to me, i cant let you walk out of my life this easy you are everything to me please :'(