blah.....what else is there to say?
well i got ahold of Lindsay finally she added me back on her LJ buddies hurray! my mind is a clutter of what good can happen and what bad, as normal its more bad then good, i feel partly that my relationship with Lindsey is a lie.... maybe thats just cuz its a kind of relationship im not used to at all, im not used to having someone that is constantly thinking about others and all.... and that has told me directly to my face that she is growing more and more distant from me when i was getting used to the fact that she was saying that day by day she was getting closer, she constantly confuses me... i mean i know i love her..... but her heart seems to belong to another.... but what am i bitching about who is she with right now.... well she left the room but ME, thats what the important thing to think about is...but yet she maybe here Physically its hard knowing mentally she is everywhere else... when im completley focused on her.... she focused on something else... it hurts but i put up with it because i want to be with her and i want this to work i dont want to fail again...Seth if your hearing my cries, please dont let me fail again.... i hate knwoing myself as a failure for once help me do something right...or is it im doing to much... ugh... a devine mess my mind is.... i just think about this shit to much, it makes me wish that i could look up into the sky and just join it to just become part of the nothingness that is the air, and now im going to try writing a poem.... heh been a while but i can still give it a try
trees by my side,everflowing green portrait of life,in the night sky i cried,where are you, when will you remove this knife, slouching down i sit weeping,silently creeping,through the halls of my mind, to find the time, we seemed as one, but now are dancing on the line of our couplehood done,missing that feeling, i then start kneeling, by a tree, to look for love, a love so true, the tree simply sits there, and i get from it a likeness of what i get from you.
yeah...it sucks but im well out of practice, oh well im just gonna go now..... any comments bout the "poem" i just wrote please leave some
love to all, W.V.X.C.M