I don't sleep anymore
For almost two weeks now, ive stayed up every night, and slept a few hours after school, then repeated.
I have saggy dark skin under my eyes, dead eyes, that have sunk into my head.
My hair looks flat and dead, and my skin pale-grey ish.
All I do now is smoke really. i dont sleep.
why?
i could write a book about it.
so I will conclude with;
i need help, and ill find a psychologist.
My problems go beyond stress, and I know it. Stress is just the factor that drives it out of me, out in action. All that madness within.
Or is it madness? We're all crazy. Damage. that's it. This damage to my soul.
problem is, i dont think anyone can help me with that. No one can just fix me.. and i have serious doubts that i can fix myself.
unfixable pretty much.
Therapy? I'll blog it. we'll see. but i can say now, i wanna, but i dont have any faith in it.
sigh.. gotta get up in 1,5 hours. Is there a point in sleeping now? I'll never get up.
dunno.. i'll just smoke and watch the hours tick away.
I have saggy dark skin under my eyes, dead eyes, that have sunk into my head.
My hair looks flat and dead, and my skin pale-grey ish.
All I do now is smoke really. i dont sleep.
why?
i could write a book about it.
so I will conclude with;
i need help, and ill find a psychologist.
My problems go beyond stress, and I know it. Stress is just the factor that drives it out of me, out in action. All that madness within.
Or is it madness? We're all crazy. Damage. that's it. This damage to my soul.
problem is, i dont think anyone can help me with that. No one can just fix me.. and i have serious doubts that i can fix myself.
unfixable pretty much.
Therapy? I'll blog it. we'll see. but i can say now, i wanna, but i dont have any faith in it.
sigh.. gotta get up in 1,5 hours. Is there a point in sleeping now? I'll never get up.
dunno.. i'll just smoke and watch the hours tick away.