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He showed me the mark on his arm-- the Dark Mark. He told me what he had to do to get it, how he had to torture people to prove himself first, how he was almost forced to kill them after. It's still so hard to believe... that even under all that duress he's still capable--
No, I can't dwell about that. He's not an evil person. I know what he did, and I know what I did and I stand by him because I love him. I just wish I knew what was going to happen. I wish I knew what he was going to do next.
When we were talking on top of the tower, we saw the green lightning go. I had no idea what it was at the time, I just thought it was...beautiful. Now I feel sick. My youngest cousin is three years old. She just got by, but what if he does it again?
If that's true, I don't have time to be depressed anymore. I am not going to die sad and lonely, not when Theodore is there for me, with all the good and the bad that he is.
I don't want to die at all...
I don't want to write anymore about how horrible this is. I just wish it was just end already. Just end.