Dont Get My Hopes Up... I'll spit on you

[_stryke_a_pose]

God damn you. I am so happy when I am with you, but you totally blow it. You tell me we're gonna do something, but "something comes up." Fuck that shit, man. I want to be happy with you, and I really am, but sometimes it comes and goes. Tonight was a great example. I want to keep what we have, but all of this is confusing. This is the 4th time you've cancelled. I like plans, and I like going by those plans. Dont fuck it up, please. I like you, I like spending time with you, and you're the one person I think of when I go throughout my day. You're amazing, but some of the things you do aren't amazing. I just wish we could make plans and then go with the plans, not cancel, not change, not nothing- keep the plans!

And I can't stay around if you keep moving closer and then pulling away. I know we're not dating, I know you're not ready... but some of the things you do/say/etc make me so happy, but then you pull away. I dont know what the hell is going on. I know you're not ready, and I'm not gonna force you to do anything you're not ready to do. Just let me know if I've gone to far, or you feel like I'm about to go too far. I want to communicate. Communication is great!!!

I really like you. I really do. I just want to know if you like me. I dont tell you about Betty, and I'd appreciate it if you didn't tell me about Nicole. Itd be good. Its called respect. It just makes me feel like you've lost any and all intrest in me.

Why do you like me in the first place? I feel like I am a crazy bitch and a loser.