#386
i'm an easily influenced person. it has its pros and cons.
but of late i find that i'm drifting further from my friends. because our lives have taken us on very different routes that sometimes i find it so hard to share and converse.
sometimes i secretly (and sometimes not so secretly) try to convince myself that the path i have taken is superior or better to ease the ache i feel about all the things i'm missing out on. the problem i think is that i'm not comfortable enough with the path i've taken and the choices i've made to look on and share other's experiences without feeling that tinge of jealousy/envy that results in me becoming a frightful bitch that needs to tear down their lives in my mind in order to make myself feel better. so i choose to isolate myself. i really should learn to be more comfortable with myself.
between dance, medicine and the darling boy i really don't have much time for anything else. and i do what the other things, but i wouldn't want to trade any of the above 3 for them you see. so i should learn to come to terms and stop this horrid mean and spiteful need to justify my choices by putting others down.
so yes that's a load of my mind.
school starts next week for me. so here we go again!
but of late i find that i'm drifting further from my friends. because our lives have taken us on very different routes that sometimes i find it so hard to share and converse.
sometimes i secretly (and sometimes not so secretly) try to convince myself that the path i have taken is superior or better to ease the ache i feel about all the things i'm missing out on. the problem i think is that i'm not comfortable enough with the path i've taken and the choices i've made to look on and share other's experiences without feeling that tinge of jealousy/envy that results in me becoming a frightful bitch that needs to tear down their lives in my mind in order to make myself feel better. so i choose to isolate myself. i really should learn to be more comfortable with myself.
between dance, medicine and the darling boy i really don't have much time for anything else. and i do what the other things, but i wouldn't want to trade any of the above 3 for them you see. so i should learn to come to terms and stop this horrid mean and spiteful need to justify my choices by putting others down.
so yes that's a load of my mind.
school starts next week for me. so here we go again!