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[_straightedge_]

i'm sorry
i keep making mistakes, bad decisions
&& i keep pushing people away

all i can say is i'm sorry
stick with me
i'll get better.
it wont be like this forever
i promise...
@ least i hope not.

but...this is me for now.
i know some of the things im doing
are wrong, stupid, just bad
i know that, so why am i doing it?
i cant even tell you, i dont know.
its just been really hard this past week.
and i guess this is my way of dealing with it.
or something.

but i just want you to always remember
i love you.