I hate Brandon!

[_stay_with_me_x]

is it mentally possible to hate someone so much but ONLY cause of how ridiculous you feel after spending that much time with that person?? cause if so, that would be my case. I cried myself to sleep last night. I hate the fact that it's been about a month and i'm still crying. I called Anna crying, and told her the convo Brandon and I had THROUGH Jenna, and then the comments his friend Evan had said to me. I remember talking to Erin, but I wasn't talking. I was just kinda rambling on about how I couldn't think straight, and how hurt I was after what was said. I explained to Anna everything. From having him having sex with Liz to the comment Evan gave me. I couldn't stop sobbing. Why do I still cry. Why did Brandon have to carve his home into my heart. I want to regret the day we met, and I want to forget about him... but, only so I don't feel like this. I can admite, I want to be friends.. but not with someone who has treated me as badly as he did.

Thus the fact that I probably won't be able to trust another guy for a while. Brandon broke my heart. He used me just as a trophy to hang on his counter as another sign of how many "hoes" he had. Anna told me that I shouldn't EVER be forced EVER again to open my heart to another guy. Wow, i'm so pitiful.

wise words from a good friend...

We hide because we want to be found. We walk away to see who will follow. We cry to see who will wipe away the tears, and we let our hearts get broken to see who will come and fix them.