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I never want to get up this early again. It's 6:30 in the morning and i'm at work and i've been here for an hour and a half. Who in their right mind would wake up at 5 to come work out. There are just no words..
In other news, I finally have a positive outlook on almost everything. Finally. It only took me a god damn 2 months haha. I'm done with crying, hating the world (aka - the male race), drinking wine and watching tyra alone with danielle on a friday night (dont get me wrong d - it is fun but u and i really need to leave the house more hahaha), and complaining about stupid things that i probably won't find important in about a year or 2.
I am worth more than me sitting in a room sulking over a boy. You won't find me doing that anymore. I still care for him alot and feel for him, and i still find it soo fucking weird that he is with her or whatever (simply because she isn't me) - and of course i still think that what we had was something special (even if the whole situation sucked and was fucked up), and who knows maybe someday it could happen again. but thinking about this all the time is torture. so- this is me giving up and giving in. and yeah, it is hard at times, but i'm stopping that insanity. I will eventually find someone who will care about me as much as i care about them but right now i don't need to think about that. I just want to have fun and laugh and enjoy my life. I am the fuckin party bitch. :)
So to continue on with this update of my life...
my sister will be poppin out another child in a couple of months. a girl. i'm excited.
i have decided to take up riding for a new hobby. i will own a quad before january 1st. u watch.
danielle and i are practically married. besides the fact that im straight, i can see our relationship lasting long. haha just kidding but srsly.
I cant wait until thanksgiving when everyone is home. I miss all of us hanging out like we used to. i miss being with kelsey 24/7 and i miss driving around with kara in the guppie. and i miss doing the most random shit with jen.
well anyway, im gonna peace.
<3
In other news, I finally have a positive outlook on almost everything. Finally. It only took me a god damn 2 months haha. I'm done with crying, hating the world (aka - the male race), drinking wine and watching tyra alone with danielle on a friday night (dont get me wrong d - it is fun but u and i really need to leave the house more hahaha), and complaining about stupid things that i probably won't find important in about a year or 2.
I am worth more than me sitting in a room sulking over a boy. You won't find me doing that anymore. I still care for him alot and feel for him, and i still find it soo fucking weird that he is with her or whatever (simply because she isn't me) - and of course i still think that what we had was something special (even if the whole situation sucked and was fucked up), and who knows maybe someday it could happen again. but thinking about this all the time is torture. so- this is me giving up and giving in. and yeah, it is hard at times, but i'm stopping that insanity. I will eventually find someone who will care about me as much as i care about them but right now i don't need to think about that. I just want to have fun and laugh and enjoy my life. I am the fuckin party bitch. :)
So to continue on with this update of my life...
my sister will be poppin out another child in a couple of months. a girl. i'm excited.
i have decided to take up riding for a new hobby. i will own a quad before january 1st. u watch.
danielle and i are practically married. besides the fact that im straight, i can see our relationship lasting long. haha just kidding but srsly.
I cant wait until thanksgiving when everyone is home. I miss all of us hanging out like we used to. i miss being with kelsey 24/7 and i miss driving around with kara in the guppie. and i miss doing the most random shit with jen.
well anyway, im gonna peace.
<3