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my therapist called today and left a message and says he wants to see how im doing. i dont want to call him. i'd rather just have an appt even tho i dont like them much. ummm....well last nite i felt bad cuz i got too much alone time with myself and i got to thinking about it all...i logged on to laceys old sn even though i knew that i would jsut get mad and what happened, i got mad cuz she's got her aimee ambria and anthony in one section and i'm not there...she used to be my best fucking friend and now i just get shoved with the rest of her off "buds"...for cryin out loud she talks to kristin more than me...and then i found out that aio has another sn that i guess she only gives her friends or something..cuz i got the URL for her profile and looked @ it so she wouldn't see my sn. and only lacey's, ambria's and anthony's sn's are on there and it just made me mad cuz i used to be a part of that and now im not, and i went to go do my HW and my dad made me go upstairs cuz they were watching deadwood and i was got mad about that, i was trying to go into the game room and i hit my knee and it hurt and i started screaming "godDAMMIT!" and my dad came upstairs and he thought i was only mad cuz they made me go up but i didnt know how to explain that i was mad. and then last nite i wanted to really hurt myself and i started to fall over but i think i've got too much self control, i just picked myself back up.