i'm all out of love, i'm so lost without you

[_starshollow_]

what the heck? i am entitled to my feelings about this whole thing. no one seems to care anymore... they all think that i should be over it by now and moving on with my life. but i can't freaking help it if i'm not. i mean i thought i was going to marry the kid, and 2 months after breaking up with me he has a new girlfriend! how am i supposed to deal with that, honestly?? and i can't even get away from them... they are in my face all the time, and excuse me, but sometimes it's hard to deal with. i really think that i have exceeded everyone's expectations and dealt with everything remarkably well, better than i could have ever imagined... but i am still dealing with it!! everyone needs to stop telling me "well it has been 6 months now... it's inevitable that you will see them together... aren't you over it by now?". no. i'm not over it yet and i would appreciate it if my best friends would stop defending their relationship and befriending her! and, hell no, but i would not be ok with chelsea moving in with her, even if she needs a place to live. am i the only one who sees how ridiculously hard that would be on me?? gosh!

well that's enough of that rant. i just had to get it off my mind. thank you, livejournal :)