Opening a new Chapter in life!!!
well i am a little disappointed in myself! i fell into the whole online journal thing. Oh well, hopefully it will be my therapy.
Tonight was kimberly's graduation. I am extremely proud of her. I had alot of fun. I could tell that she was genuinely happy for herself. That's always important.
Brittany and Kimberly have been saying lately that they might not want to go to college. That disappoints me greatly. I don't know if they are scared or truly believe that they would have just a good life if they didn't attend college. I belive that they will have a better existence if they graduate from college. They say that they will just like to settle for being the manager of Publix(Lame). Why settle? At least give college a chance. You might find your true passion while you're in college. ANYWAY!
I have been talking to Jeff alot lately. It's extremely bizarre to me. I hate that I am being weak and letting him into my life again, even if it is just as my friend. But I don't think that me and Jeff can ever really be friends. We still say i love you and I tell him I miss him. He tells me the same.
For a while I did think that I had fallen out of love with him like that. But I was wrong. I should not have been so naive. I still do love him so very much. When he's nice to me I fall back into the girl I was when we were together. i wish that we could be together and truly be happy, but there has been so much hurt on both our parts that we could never forget, and as much as we say we have we can never really forgive. It helps alot that we are not living in the same state. I know that we would be back together or he would be making my life hell. Which is about the same as us being together.
A part of me wants to be in a relationship but I know that it's not best. I am really not ready to let another into my life or my heart. i just hope that it all comes together in the end and I am happy. That is all I want in life. To be happy. Truly Happy.
Well this is my first journal entry. It did help to write all my thoughts down. I'm just not sure about the whole letting everyone in the world know about it.
Tonight was kimberly's graduation. I am extremely proud of her. I had alot of fun. I could tell that she was genuinely happy for herself. That's always important.
Brittany and Kimberly have been saying lately that they might not want to go to college. That disappoints me greatly. I don't know if they are scared or truly believe that they would have just a good life if they didn't attend college. I belive that they will have a better existence if they graduate from college. They say that they will just like to settle for being the manager of Publix(Lame). Why settle? At least give college a chance. You might find your true passion while you're in college. ANYWAY!
I have been talking to Jeff alot lately. It's extremely bizarre to me. I hate that I am being weak and letting him into my life again, even if it is just as my friend. But I don't think that me and Jeff can ever really be friends. We still say i love you and I tell him I miss him. He tells me the same.
For a while I did think that I had fallen out of love with him like that. But I was wrong. I should not have been so naive. I still do love him so very much. When he's nice to me I fall back into the girl I was when we were together. i wish that we could be together and truly be happy, but there has been so much hurt on both our parts that we could never forget, and as much as we say we have we can never really forgive. It helps alot that we are not living in the same state. I know that we would be back together or he would be making my life hell. Which is about the same as us being together.
A part of me wants to be in a relationship but I know that it's not best. I am really not ready to let another into my life or my heart. i just hope that it all comes together in the end and I am happy. That is all I want in life. To be happy. Truly Happy.
Well this is my first journal entry. It did help to write all my thoughts down. I'm just not sure about the whole letting everyone in the world know about it.