is this what you want?

[_starkiss]

Theoretically, I like school. I like the idea of learning really obscure philosophical systems and reading 17th-century poetry that no one else cares about. But I can't seem to work up any practical interest. I fail at life these days. I don't know what to do.

I don't really know how to articulate the feeling, either. I want to be here. I want to do well. I cannot translate that from my head to my life, though.