For Now
Hello everyone. I've been here for quite a while but haven't posted anything here. Actually, I've never posted anything in live journal yet. So, this will be the first time I'm posting up something. Please correct me if I did anything wrong. Um, this is the first yaoi fic I’ve ever written. So, it might be crappy. I wanted to try and write a fic like this since a few weeks ago but I couldn't think of anything.. until today. Haha, so yeah. Please don't hate me :\. Constructive criticisms are welcome.
author : rebelyon5anghel.
title : for now.
pairing : jaemin, of course.
rating : uh, I’m not sure about this.
genre : angst.
warning’s : blind min, my english isn't that good.
author's note : uh. might have part 2. if it is liked or something.
"It's glaucoma," The doctor say's when he steppes out of the room which Chang Min is in.
".. What is that?" It's all I can ask and think about and I've never felt so scared, my heart feels like exploding out of my chest. I know it isn’t good.
"It's an eye condition in which the optic nerve is damaged by raised pressure within the eye. Glaucoma doesn't usually involve pain but in Mr. Shim's case it does, as in some rare cases the pressure rises up too quickly to extremely high levels. At the moment, there is no such cure for this disease. I'm sorry Mr. Kim but,” He pauses. “He's gone blind," I listen intently as he says all this but my head snaps up to look at the doctor when he says the last sentence. He looks at me sympathetically. Then continues after a while because I can’t bring myself to say any words. “Mr. Shim is allowed to go home tomorrow if we find that there is nothing else wrong with him but he will be given special medication for the pain. After the medication is finished but the pain prolongs, he might need to come back for surgery,”
“Can I see him now?” I ask, my voice cracks, I feel light headed and my body feels faint.
“Yes, the pain killers should start working soon. Maybe in a few minutes, you should try calming him down. If there are any problems please ring for a nurse,” The doctor says before dismissing himself. I take a step towards the white door with the numbers 207 on it. Each step I take is slow and my mind is only letting the news sink in now.
He’s gone blind. Those three words echo in my head. He’s gone blind.
As I’m reaching out for the door, I’m hoping that it’s just one of Chang Min’s little tricks. That he just asked the doctor to tell me that he has some serious disease. So, he can laugh it off later but I know I’m just dreaming because the look on Chang Min’s face when he fainted this morning wasn’t pleasant. It was pale, almost ghost like and Chang Min was tanned. His body was limp and when I touched him, he was so cold. So so cold.
I took a deep breath as the door clicked open and I glanced inside, the curtains were covering him but I could hear it. A whimper, a little whack as the bed was hit, and then a groan.
Pain.
“C-Chang Min?” It’s almost like a whisper, the sound so foreign to me as the words come out in a stutter but he hears it.
“Hyung,” His voice comes out forced as he cringes. His fists grabbing the bed sheets, squeezing them tightly. He’s sweating too. The curtains aren’t there anymore and bandages are around his head, covering his eyes.
“It’s okay. I’m here Minnie, I’m here,” I say, as I try my best to keep my voice from cracking. I rush to his side and take his hand in mine, clutching it tightly just so he’d know I’m not lying.
“..Hurts,” He gasps, squeezing my hand tighter and I whisper soothing words of comfort to him. Though tears are running down my face now, he can’t see them and he never will. But, I realise that I have to be strong. For him. For Chang Min. So, I suck in my tears.
And all I do is hold his hand in mine, even if his grip makes my hand feel like it's going to break.. and wipe his forehead with a cool wet cloth because it’s all I can do.
for now.
what do you think? :| *hides*
author : rebelyon5anghel.
title : for now.
pairing : jaemin, of course.
rating : uh, I’m not sure about this.
genre : angst.
warning’s : blind min, my english isn't that good.
author's note : uh. might have part 2. if it is liked or something.
"It's glaucoma," The doctor say's when he steppes out of the room which Chang Min is in.
".. What is that?" It's all I can ask and think about and I've never felt so scared, my heart feels like exploding out of my chest. I know it isn’t good.
"It's an eye condition in which the optic nerve is damaged by raised pressure within the eye. Glaucoma doesn't usually involve pain but in Mr. Shim's case it does, as in some rare cases the pressure rises up too quickly to extremely high levels. At the moment, there is no such cure for this disease. I'm sorry Mr. Kim but,” He pauses. “He's gone blind," I listen intently as he says all this but my head snaps up to look at the doctor when he says the last sentence. He looks at me sympathetically. Then continues after a while because I can’t bring myself to say any words. “Mr. Shim is allowed to go home tomorrow if we find that there is nothing else wrong with him but he will be given special medication for the pain. After the medication is finished but the pain prolongs, he might need to come back for surgery,”
“Can I see him now?” I ask, my voice cracks, I feel light headed and my body feels faint.
“Yes, the pain killers should start working soon. Maybe in a few minutes, you should try calming him down. If there are any problems please ring for a nurse,” The doctor says before dismissing himself. I take a step towards the white door with the numbers 207 on it. Each step I take is slow and my mind is only letting the news sink in now.
He’s gone blind. Those three words echo in my head. He’s gone blind.
As I’m reaching out for the door, I’m hoping that it’s just one of Chang Min’s little tricks. That he just asked the doctor to tell me that he has some serious disease. So, he can laugh it off later but I know I’m just dreaming because the look on Chang Min’s face when he fainted this morning wasn’t pleasant. It was pale, almost ghost like and Chang Min was tanned. His body was limp and when I touched him, he was so cold. So so cold.
I took a deep breath as the door clicked open and I glanced inside, the curtains were covering him but I could hear it. A whimper, a little whack as the bed was hit, and then a groan.
Pain.
“C-Chang Min?” It’s almost like a whisper, the sound so foreign to me as the words come out in a stutter but he hears it.
“Hyung,” His voice comes out forced as he cringes. His fists grabbing the bed sheets, squeezing them tightly. He’s sweating too. The curtains aren’t there anymore and bandages are around his head, covering his eyes.
“It’s okay. I’m here Minnie, I’m here,” I say, as I try my best to keep my voice from cracking. I rush to his side and take his hand in mine, clutching it tightly just so he’d know I’m not lying.
“..Hurts,” He gasps, squeezing my hand tighter and I whisper soothing words of comfort to him. Though tears are running down my face now, he can’t see them and he never will. But, I realise that I have to be strong. For him. For Chang Min. So, I suck in my tears.
And all I do is hold his hand in mine, even if his grip makes my hand feel like it's going to break.. and wipe his forehead with a cool wet cloth because it’s all I can do.
for now.
what do you think? :| *hides*