Yesterday was a pretty good day.
IFUCKINGHATELIVEJOURNALAHHDELETEMYFUCKINGPOSTIJUSTWROTEIHATEYOU
and,
yeah.
It was a good one too.
Fuck.
Anyway,
I don't feel like writing it again,
I'm so angry,
I've been so on edge lately,
I just,
its like I can't deal with any bullshit from people like I used to be able to.
Example: alistair. Always an asshole. Usually I just try and avoid him,
But thursday I totally just bitched him out.
I mean, of course,
He'd made some really mean comment a couple days earlier about me not having any friends that I just hadn't reponded to,
and just let the anger build up, so,
when he even began to say anything mean,
I just freaked out,
I don't know.
I don't feel like,
that's like me.
I don't know what's going on.
I'm so paranoid about how Matt's parents always go on about how ungrateful I am,
to the point I've started just throwing out thank yous randomly in response to everything they say,
to the point its literally like;
"Hi Jessica, how are you?"
"THANK YOU!!!!" ::runs away clutching head::
I promise I'm not afraid of people!
Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,
I love the Talking Heads....
Why am I so frustrated?
Mmmm, I miss Matt.
I like that we have the best moments/hours/days
just lying around,
staring into eachother's eyes
"and nothing is better than that,
oh, is there?"
I don't think I'm a mean person.
I hope not.
"there's nobody, there's no mountain, there's no tunnel,
you can't get from there to here,
you can't get from here to there,
there hasn't been a change in the atmosphere,
there hasn't been a change for over a year,
there hasn't been a change in the atmosphere"
"cut your hand on the atmosphere,
split in two, bandaids on your hand,
split,
the atmosphere,
is split in two,
staring at you"
P.S.
hehehehehe,
my jacket...
HEHE!
P.P.S.
YAY CAITLIN!
I'm
SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!
YAY!
and,
yeah.
It was a good one too.
Fuck.
Anyway,
I don't feel like writing it again,
I'm so angry,
I've been so on edge lately,
I just,
its like I can't deal with any bullshit from people like I used to be able to.
Example: alistair. Always an asshole. Usually I just try and avoid him,
But thursday I totally just bitched him out.
I mean, of course,
He'd made some really mean comment a couple days earlier about me not having any friends that I just hadn't reponded to,
and just let the anger build up, so,
when he even began to say anything mean,
I just freaked out,
I don't know.
I don't feel like,
that's like me.
I don't know what's going on.
I'm so paranoid about how Matt's parents always go on about how ungrateful I am,
to the point I've started just throwing out thank yous randomly in response to everything they say,
to the point its literally like;
"Hi Jessica, how are you?"
"THANK YOU!!!!" ::runs away clutching head::
I promise I'm not afraid of people!
Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,
I love the Talking Heads....
Why am I so frustrated?
Mmmm, I miss Matt.
I like that we have the best moments/hours/days
just lying around,
staring into eachother's eyes
"and nothing is better than that,
oh, is there?"
I don't think I'm a mean person.
I hope not.
"there's nobody, there's no mountain, there's no tunnel,
you can't get from there to here,
you can't get from here to there,
there hasn't been a change in the atmosphere,
there hasn't been a change for over a year,
there hasn't been a change in the atmosphere"
"cut your hand on the atmosphere,
split in two, bandaids on your hand,
split,
the atmosphere,
is split in two,
staring at you"
P.S.
hehehehehe,
my jacket...
HEHE!
P.P.S.
YAY CAITLIN!
I'm
SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU!
YAY!