maybe my color mixing is just off
Caroline said, "Fate and Your own will are like that circus act where you are riding two horses.. One foot on each, so you are the rider of fate and your choices... that's why sometimes, you feel so off track, because your choices lead you astray."
And that's exactly how I feel... so astray, so far from where I should be.
I feel like I have no connection with the person I'm supposedly in love with...
And I'm trying so many new things to stretch myself that I am losing myself... like finance...
I have absolutely no money. At all. When people say they are "broke" they mean they are saving money to pay bills, or watching their wallets... I mean that I have less than fifty dollars... That's it. That is all that I have in the world. Forty dollars. I can't even apply for my study abroad.
I am petrified.
my heart feels so wrong to keep beating. my ears can hear the blood pumping in my body. and this is me being calm, being rational, knowing what I am saying and trying not to be dramatic... just telling it like I see it.
what do I do? how do I react?
Love Love Love
And that's exactly how I feel... so astray, so far from where I should be.
I feel like I have no connection with the person I'm supposedly in love with...
And I'm trying so many new things to stretch myself that I am losing myself... like finance...
I have absolutely no money. At all. When people say they are "broke" they mean they are saving money to pay bills, or watching their wallets... I mean that I have less than fifty dollars... That's it. That is all that I have in the world. Forty dollars. I can't even apply for my study abroad.
I am petrified.
my heart feels so wrong to keep beating. my ears can hear the blood pumping in my body. and this is me being calm, being rational, knowing what I am saying and trying not to be dramatic... just telling it like I see it.
what do I do? how do I react?
Love Love Love