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That pic is one Mike took of me when he had to take black and white pics for his photo class a few weeks ago, I need a better one though because that turned out really dark when I scanned it. Oh well.
Updates have become rare just as I predicted. I've been working like crazy and the remainder of my time has been spent with Mike, big shocker. Work is kind of shitty, I'm getting really tired of cleaning up after fat people and dealing with stupid comments I get from customers. People are so fucking rude. If anyone is looking for a job or ever is anytime in the future, DO NOT WORK AT A BUFFET. They've been giving me more and more hours (today is my only day off this week) but yet I still have no money because both of my last two checks were gone within 24 hours. The most recent check was spent on clothes for a fetish party, and some of the next one because Mike bought part of the outfit and I have to pay him back.
Anyway, besides all that life is...shit, for lack of a better word or the willingness to think of one. My mom isn't talking to me, which is really starting to get old because I haven't done a damn thing. Aparently having a life and not sitting at home with her deserves the silent treatment. I'm pretty sure she's going to kick me out when I turn 18 so now I need to figure out where the fuck I'm going to live and now that I have a job she told me not to ask her for anything and that I have to buy all my own shit, right down to stuff like shampoo and food. I hate her.
My relationship is...fuck if I know. I don't know how to explain it to myself or him let alone anyone else. It's just gotten really hard and I feel like I'm always upset and all these little things he says bother me when I know he doesn't mean anything by them. Today I left his house pissed off because he was on the computer and he tried to talk to me about it because he knew I was upset, but I left anyway and went home and cried because he just let me leave and didn't call or anything. What the fuck is that?? I'm retarded. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I'm working for the next 6 days so I doubt they'll be another update for awhile. I think I'm going to go running until I'm too tired to be upset anymore.
Updates have become rare just as I predicted. I've been working like crazy and the remainder of my time has been spent with Mike, big shocker. Work is kind of shitty, I'm getting really tired of cleaning up after fat people and dealing with stupid comments I get from customers. People are so fucking rude. If anyone is looking for a job or ever is anytime in the future, DO NOT WORK AT A BUFFET. They've been giving me more and more hours (today is my only day off this week) but yet I still have no money because both of my last two checks were gone within 24 hours. The most recent check was spent on clothes for a fetish party, and some of the next one because Mike bought part of the outfit and I have to pay him back.
Anyway, besides all that life is...shit, for lack of a better word or the willingness to think of one. My mom isn't talking to me, which is really starting to get old because I haven't done a damn thing. Aparently having a life and not sitting at home with her deserves the silent treatment. I'm pretty sure she's going to kick me out when I turn 18 so now I need to figure out where the fuck I'm going to live and now that I have a job she told me not to ask her for anything and that I have to buy all my own shit, right down to stuff like shampoo and food. I hate her.
My relationship is...fuck if I know. I don't know how to explain it to myself or him let alone anyone else. It's just gotten really hard and I feel like I'm always upset and all these little things he says bother me when I know he doesn't mean anything by them. Today I left his house pissed off because he was on the computer and he tried to talk to me about it because he knew I was upset, but I left anyway and went home and cried because he just let me leave and didn't call or anything. What the fuck is that?? I'm retarded. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I'm working for the next 6 days so I doubt they'll be another update for awhile. I think I'm going to go running until I'm too tired to be upset anymore.