here it is, for you and all of cyberspace
i love you. i don't know why i let the little things hurt me the most. i don't know why i cant let things go. there are a fuck load of things that i dont know, cant explain, and it terrifies me. but i do know that i love you. i do know that i will stay down here for you. i will give up everything because you are the only thing that matters.
you act like there aren't colleges down here. you act as though im going to leave you. when all my fear says that it will be the other way around.
i know you are doing things on your own right now...i just want to be a part of it. you know that.
i want to feel that im the most important thing in your life. i know i am, i just want to feel that way sometimes.
i need more than text messaging. its fun, but sometimes id rather hear you, your voice, and everything else. and sometimes the phone isnt enough. i need real life interaction. i need a balance of the three.
all im trying to do is help, and we keep fighting because of it. i hate fighting. when we fight i hate myself more than i ever could. you are the only thing that keeps me happy. its a large burden and im sorry for it, but i am addicted to you. i cant be without you.
i cant live without you. and im not being stupid and just saying these things. its the truth i swear.
i'll keep trying. keep trying to make you happy. keep trying to fight less and less. keep trying to love you with all my heart. we need to stop all these things that we realize are coming between us.
i love you so much, and you mean the world to me.
*to everyone else who reads my lj im sorry everything is about ally. i know its boring for you to read. i wish i had other things to talk about, but i dont. if you want to cut me i understand. its just that i post it here so i know she'll read it.*
you act like there aren't colleges down here. you act as though im going to leave you. when all my fear says that it will be the other way around.
i know you are doing things on your own right now...i just want to be a part of it. you know that.
i want to feel that im the most important thing in your life. i know i am, i just want to feel that way sometimes.
i need more than text messaging. its fun, but sometimes id rather hear you, your voice, and everything else. and sometimes the phone isnt enough. i need real life interaction. i need a balance of the three.
all im trying to do is help, and we keep fighting because of it. i hate fighting. when we fight i hate myself more than i ever could. you are the only thing that keeps me happy. its a large burden and im sorry for it, but i am addicted to you. i cant be without you.
i cant live without you. and im not being stupid and just saying these things. its the truth i swear.
i'll keep trying. keep trying to make you happy. keep trying to fight less and less. keep trying to love you with all my heart. we need to stop all these things that we realize are coming between us.
i love you so much, and you mean the world to me.
*to everyone else who reads my lj im sorry everything is about ally. i know its boring for you to read. i wish i had other things to talk about, but i dont. if you want to cut me i understand. its just that i post it here so i know she'll read it.*