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hmm, dont know what is it tonight...maybe just the fact that i have a paper to finish so im doing everything i can think of so i wont have to finish it....if that made any sense.
but yaaaahh....
im feeling sad. i dont know if its sad. maybe more like dissappointed...regretful? dont get me wrong. i love abby more than anything in this world. she means everything to me and i am so thankful for her. but but but
it makes me sad
to think that im...well in the worse way i can put it...missing out on so much.
i had to stop everything i was happy about and just go in a whole different direction. i loved ub. loved loved loved it there. i finally made some awesome freinds and finally got super duper awesome roommates and everything was perfect and i had a plan and was happy. and then i find out about abby and everything is different. i had to leave ub, leave my freinds, my memories. my lifestyle pretty much. i mean im cool with everything now. i love it. but i hate thinking about what im missing out on. i dont just go out anymore. i cant just sit at my computer all day playing chuzzle and spider solitaire. i cant just hop in the car and hang out at the mall cause im cool. i was just starting to love school, bleh. i dont know...maybe its like late late postpartum depression. who knows. it just bites. im sad. sad as heck.
ill go on a little bit of a lame rant now....
no one really knows how much i enjoyed my last year at ub. it was the best time of my life. i love rita and jenn and tori and evan and crazy kurt and big mama and super gay abbie and even jono...etc etc etc
ahh it just drives me crazy. i had so many effin good times. and i hate the fact that im not having those good times anymore. im jealous of everyone. i want to be there.
and its stupid things too...like....
getting locked out of the dorm to go smoke
staying in the room during a fire drill
dying ritas hair
haveing a fish
going to the olive garden and getting lots of salad and bread
going tanning for free
random grocery stops
midnight donut runs
ddr
endless mario
making fun of ritas boyfriends
making fun of jenn pretending to be a bear
taco bell vs mighty taco
not getting mighty maniac shirts
jenns wearing shorts and high heels
evan and his elevator tricks
ritas bike in the middle of the room
jenns hair everywhere
sleeping with your computer
tori getting naked in the elevator
hubies runs
valentine gingerbread houses
decorating the room
christmas light all year round
crazy game nights
having people take your laundry out before its done
making spiral mac and cheese
making melted confetti cupcakes
a futon/fondue
fat girl cake
haunted houses and awesome pizza
lamas and alpacas farms
thats allstate stan
liting tori on fire/learning to survive in wind storms
tori frieeend....
cosby and jello....nuff said...
omg i could go on forever.....
but yeah. im okay. just miss it. ill survive.
just means everyone better keep in touch with eachother. its too good to loose
but yaaaahh....
im feeling sad. i dont know if its sad. maybe more like dissappointed...regretful? dont get me wrong. i love abby more than anything in this world. she means everything to me and i am so thankful for her. but but but
it makes me sad
to think that im...well in the worse way i can put it...missing out on so much.
i had to stop everything i was happy about and just go in a whole different direction. i loved ub. loved loved loved it there. i finally made some awesome freinds and finally got super duper awesome roommates and everything was perfect and i had a plan and was happy. and then i find out about abby and everything is different. i had to leave ub, leave my freinds, my memories. my lifestyle pretty much. i mean im cool with everything now. i love it. but i hate thinking about what im missing out on. i dont just go out anymore. i cant just sit at my computer all day playing chuzzle and spider solitaire. i cant just hop in the car and hang out at the mall cause im cool. i was just starting to love school, bleh. i dont know...maybe its like late late postpartum depression. who knows. it just bites. im sad. sad as heck.
ill go on a little bit of a lame rant now....
no one really knows how much i enjoyed my last year at ub. it was the best time of my life. i love rita and jenn and tori and evan and crazy kurt and big mama and super gay abbie and even jono...etc etc etc
ahh it just drives me crazy. i had so many effin good times. and i hate the fact that im not having those good times anymore. im jealous of everyone. i want to be there.
and its stupid things too...like....
getting locked out of the dorm to go smoke
staying in the room during a fire drill
dying ritas hair
haveing a fish
going to the olive garden and getting lots of salad and bread
going tanning for free
random grocery stops
midnight donut runs
ddr
endless mario
making fun of ritas boyfriends
making fun of jenn pretending to be a bear
taco bell vs mighty taco
not getting mighty maniac shirts
jenns wearing shorts and high heels
evan and his elevator tricks
ritas bike in the middle of the room
jenns hair everywhere
sleeping with your computer
tori getting naked in the elevator
hubies runs
valentine gingerbread houses
decorating the room
christmas light all year round
crazy game nights
having people take your laundry out before its done
making spiral mac and cheese
making melted confetti cupcakes
a futon/fondue
fat girl cake
haunted houses and awesome pizza
lamas and alpacas farms
thats allstate stan
liting tori on fire/learning to survive in wind storms
tori frieeend....
cosby and jello....nuff said...
omg i could go on forever.....
but yeah. im okay. just miss it. ill survive.
just means everyone better keep in touch with eachother. its too good to loose