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this weekend has been one of the hardest ever. My life has changed forever. Im not sure if I have made the right decision but it is something that I need right now. I never meant to hurt sonny. I never wanted to see him hurt. I care about him more than any other person on this earth and I still do. I love him but I am not ready to be tied down. I am 17 and I felt like I was married. I do love him more than I ever loved anyone and he has opened my heart in so many ways but I am not emotionally ready for this kind of committed relationship. He will always be my best friend and only fate will tell if our paths cross again. I still want him in my life because he completes me. I am so scared for him and myself. I want to meand all of his hurt somehow. The hurt that I have caused. Only time will tell. With that said I plan on ending this journal as well as he did because this journal was significant of my life with him. I have documented the best times of my short life so far, my life with him. Maybe someday I will return to it but I must let things pass for now. So fairwell to all; those I know, and others I don't, so well.